So this conversation isn't all that impressive, really, except that I clarified some thoughts on society and identity and sexuality and am once again at peace with myself. Kind of like - the stuff you always knew but never really sorted out until you, well, sorted it out.

I should organize this into a more coherent essay sometime. With more background than we bothered to cite to each other because, I mean, we knew each other well enough not to...

( AIM storage log )

Yay?

edit: So I think I just may revoke that statement because when I think about in SHS (orchestra at least) (now at least) (now that I think about it, maybe that isn't exactly true either) (I should stop going back and adding comments in parentheses) I hang out with girls more than boys! Maybe Korean boys are just cooler. Or maybe Korean girls are just too different, who knows.

Although, it definitely happened on the SJYS trip too. And to some degree in Australia... no okay that doesn't really count. That was more like co-ed with pervertedness meter to the extreme.

Also, I loved hanging around the tech room back when the Asian gamer crew was still around (sophomore year?) (they've been replaced now! by... the white gamer crew lmao) and that was all male. Also I love frisbee and half the time that's all male. That's when Lilith first started calling me a manwoman & I first started calling her a pansexual white freak! hahaha Vincent your girlfriend is pansexual.

Ahem.

So back to conclusion #1: I am androgynous! Except I like boys, and I think a truly androgynous person would be bisexual.

ahahaha fuck it. It all boils down to semantics anyways.

Heck, going back through old chatlogs is kind of... addicting...

Posting a random bit in case anyone feels like reminiscing. ;D

( AIM! )

[22:53] thethirdChang: all right TRUE IS CORRECT YAY
[22:54] thethirdChang: why do they have to say k instead of z
[22:54] thethirdChang: lame program
[22:54] thethirdChang: oh well
[22:54] ThereBeYe: i j k are the unit vectors
[22:54] ThereBeYe: in the directions of x y z
[22:54] thethirdChang: oh yeah huh

[22:52] thethirdChang: wait what's pi/2
[22:52] thethirdChang: 180?
[22:52] ThereBeYe: <<
[22:52] ThereBeYe: >>

HAHAHA WAY TO BE BRAINDEAD.

Word of advice to y'all. If you take EPGY multivariable and fail (i.e. do nothing for five months), and they offer to let you stay on for half price but only half time, DON'T TAKE THE OFFER. PARTICULARLY IF YOU ARE A CHRONIC PROCRASTINATOR.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH.

epic fail yo. I'm getting sin pi and cos pi backwards. How pathetic is that?

Time for more energy drinks. Get that brain running straight again.

Also on a side note, is it true that you can sign up for w/e SAT II and then go in and take any variation of SAT II tests you want to take on the spot, without requesting change or anything? My friend mentioned it, and now that I think about their system I'm inclined to believe it's true...

In other other news, Mel's got guitarhero. I want to play rockband. I miss rockband. :( Let's start our own rockband. :D

Oh guys if you've some free time go take this survey and support my brother, who has apparently risen to the level of design consultant. Three cheers and a cookie!

omg.

editing 2 stupid minutes of video.

takes SO LONG.

so like. all morning when I was home. then from 8:30 when I got back from classes + poetry + crap all the way til now. so that's like 4 hours.

we have the most retarded vid ever wtf. watch us fail.

also, anyone think ( this conversation )

is a bit like. self-contradictory? _o_

hahahahahaha having stupid conversations with frank totally helps crack me up when I'm ready to strangle something from working on stupid japanese projects that turn out retarded anyway and don't make any sense. why did we film snakes again?

going over these chatlogs w/deb really cracked us up. xD


Maeglin Arandur: MY HOST HAS REVEALED TOO MANY OF MINE SECRETS.
Maeglin Arandur: YOU WILL ALL BURN...
fwoofie: with SO-FIYA!
ekokitten: can we eat Louis now?
ekokitten: ......
ekokitten: *beat

x swirly whirl x: save me from kevin hou
x swirly whirl x: he just asked me to go to winter ball with him
x swirly whirl x: somebody saaaaaaave meeeee
ekokitten: isn't he in this chatroom?
Nautkyn: kevin hou
thethirdChang: kevin HOU
ekokitten: oh
thethirdChang: ... lag

thethirdChang: well, I had an idea the girl hanged himself
thethirdChang: ....
thethirdChang: HERSELFHERSELFERSELF

fwoofie: Adela was..um..
fwoofie: still doing her unicycle thang
fwoofie: but she accidentally loses control
fwoofie: because every one was trying to grab at her
fwoofie: since she was wearing an uber sexy shirt
fwoofie: and bright green spandex shorts
ekokitten: UBER SEXY SHIRT? WHAT?
ekokitten: EWWWWW
fwoofie: (this is adela you know)
ekokitten: oh ok. Good.

dcdcnews: you don't wanna look at the hot woman
dcdcnews: /michael jackson?
dcdcnews: /eliza taking a bath?

Maeglin Arandur: pfft I could be branded. you never know.
fwoofie: he might be possessed with a demon
Maeglin Arandur: YOU HAVE FOUND MY SECRET, MORTALS.
Maeglin Arandur: PREPARE TO MEET YOUR FIERY END.
rebbyaon: soulfire!!
rebbyaon: *fwaaaa!!*
Maeglin Arandur: YES. WITH SOULFIRE. LOTS OF SOULFIRE.

Maeglin Arandur: ... I am totally NOT a changeling.
Maeglin Arandur: I've just got this demon infestation. His name is joe.
Maeglin Arandur: He is one of the Dark Young of Shub-Niggurath.

fwoofie: shrubbery-niggerath?
thethirdChang: shrubbery nigger-wrath!
ekokitten: ....
ekokitten: nigger-wrath ><

Maeglin Arandur: MAKE SURE THAT I'M OUT OF THE BODY BEFORE YOU COOK IT.
ekokitten: .....
fwoofie: no chance buddy
thethirdChang: throw some neoguri spicy powder on top of him! ^^
rebbyaon: or marinate in other juices
rebbyaon: :D
ekokitten: like pesto sauce!
thethirdChang: nya?
Maeglin Arandur: AIYAH. like wonderboy's magical juice?
ekokitten: (I will totally ignore that insinuation) >>

ekokitten: I will lure Louis into a room
ekokitten: with my mad um...luring skillz?
ekokitten: then I will turn the room
ekokitten: into an OVEN
ekokitten: and cook him alive
ekokitten: ^^

fwoofie: she lifts her head
fwoofie: and what does she see?
fwoofie: (come on ppl, guess what she sees)
ekokitten: dirt?
fwoofie: no!
ekokitten: you realize I'm the only person paying attention here?

dcdcnews: i bet adela cant tell
dcdcnews: but i bet that undead woman was hot
dcdcnews: she sensuously touches the camera
dcdcnews: thats like, a come on right there
thethirdChang: ....
ThereBeYe: ...
thethirdChang: so delmar's definition of sensuously touching
thethirdChang: is apparently like slapping someone in the face
thethirdChang: okay, I'll remember that
dcdcnews: - -

thethirdChang: she sings of you having kinky sex with her in her mind
ekokitten: WTH?!
Maeglin Arandur: ... Delmar, restrain your... protege.

fwoofie: (he was undercover of course)
fwoofie: so
Maeglin Arandur: "orgy porgy! orgy porgy!"

[23:58] Debra: ok..
[23:58] Debra: it was a guy
[23:58] eKokiTTen: no.
[23:58] eKokiTTen: we already knew that. You're straight
[23:58] Debra: it coulda been a dog..

ekokitten: but I don't think of sex every 5 seconds
Maeglin Arandur: no, it's more like every 2. or 1.

thethirdChang: you almost killed someone?
Maeglin Arandur: I almost killed FIVE people. in three sep. occasions
Maeglin Arandur: some idiot decided to laugh at my rejection, and so he suffered major pain. blarrrrgh.

dcdcnews: sigh
dcdcnews: i couldn't help it
dcdcnews: i stood there and poked the toilet repeatedly
dcdcnews: and then I kicked it
dcdcnews: and nothing came out

mischiefanime: that's actually pretty good writing
fwoofie: and her face was like <3
mischiefanime: okay, except that sentence

Maeglin Arandur: I nominate a vote of non-innocence for debra...
ekokitten: I second
fwoofie: wait
ekokitten: but mostly because sticking someone's face on a pencil would be scary

ekokitten: the first thing I'll do is kill Debra, then I'll move onto Louis..-____-
Maeglin Arandur: why ME?!
ekokitten: I don't know. I've always wanted to kill you

ekokitten: why would I WANT kinky sex with louis? seriously?
x swirly whirl x: why not? o____o
Maeglin Arandur: durrr.

ekokitten: I can think of plenty of other things I'd rather do
Maeglin Arandur: oh. "things" you'd rather "do"?
Maeglin Arandur: Like... dylan binders!
fwoofie: binders?
fwoofie: or folders?
ekokitten: ....
fwoofie: or backpacks
fwoofie: or pencils
fwoofie: wow customized dylan school supplies!

Maeglin Arandur: let's all make a story. each person gets a sentence. delmar, start.
dcdcnews: about the deep love of louis and debra
Maeglin Arandur: okay, fuck your story.



hahaahahaa ♥♥♥ all xD

doublepost again skip list.

x.x Sleepyyyyyy.

I stayed up too late last night talking books with kyouten.

Session Start (thethirdChang:ouvalyrin): Wed Jul 19 20:43:36 2006
Session Close (ouvalyrin): Thu Jul 20 01:06:07 2006

LOOK AT THAT. we went on for over 4 hours. Yes, with pauses in the middle, but still. Scary.

And when we both get started typing, our typing speed becomes v. fast and we also interlace different topics at the same time and then go back and read what each other wrote so we're essentially half-multitasking multiple conversations at once-- like in a chatroom! only it's just the two of us. XD;;

[20:45:39] ouvalyrin: i read pet semetary!
[20:46:01] ouvalyrin: * sematery
[20:46:04] ouvalyrin: * semataryu
[20:46:07] ouvalyrin: * sematary
[20:46:12] ouvalyrin: *fails so much*

ehehehe typing too fast can be funny.

Also! I vowed to do stuff today. i.e. actually instrument, do Chinese hw, walk dog etc (although he got walked twice last night)...

I sit down in front of the piano, and OBSESSION TAKES OVER.

Obsession is scary.

So I haven't practiced any piano I SHOULD'VE been practicing yet, and I haven't touched any other instrument, I've just been obsessively practicing certain non-teacher-pieces at the piano, and now it's TWO. wtf. Where did all the time go?!?! @.@

Also, news. Adam might come home briefly after all, sometime August. And he might bring Katie with him! Katie Cadamatre-- his Korean girlfriend who was raised by Italian parents. I want to meet her. She seems cool.

mm 'sall. back to obsessive playing.

1407 edit: Oh Del I asked Darren if he can do Max on heavy...

[14:06:37] dareonion: :(
[14:06:39] dareonion: not an a
[14:06:43] dareonion: but i've b'ed it
[14:06:56] dareonion: and only max 300

OK I have not much idea what he talks about, but I'm sure you can understand it. :D mmk yah.

1519 edit:

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.  (Doesn't everyone?)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.  (Never did.)	✓ I own lots of books.  (*looks over at Melody. the glint begins to spark*)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.  (Contacts.)	✓ I love to play video games.  (To play, yes. Not to OWN. Or to play too often.)	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.  (...accidental discoveries on my brother's computer do not count.)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (nerrrrrr)
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

( What a long meme... )

2147 edit: Well, that was amusing, to say the least.

Random missed calls from Zano, called back, he got this really shrill pitched girl who from the tones of it it was Angela to impersonate Delmar except not really, because it was in a v. obv. impersonating fashion, and the whole time I was sitting there eating 綠豆湯 and cracking up except not into the phone, and it was greatly amusing.

I am now v. cheered.

In other news, practicing cello outside must be the best idea ever, because it's not as hot and you don't start sweating and it's better for concentration and the sound rings out into the open and it's great because you can practice on for an hour and not notice or check the clock or anything...

EXCEPT MOSQUITOES. T__T;;

oh well, wasn't too bad. I don't get "giant" mosquito bites anymore. They diminish down to a red dot after a day or three.