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Sep. 24th, 2006 09:54 ammy LIFE. is kitten poo.
Guess what I'm up doing every morning before everyone is awake? Guess what's the last thing I do before I go to bed? Guess what's the first thing I do when I get back from school?
it's not homework, that's for sure. >>
No seriously, you haven't lived until you've had FOUR kittens - not one, not three, FOUR - take over your bathroom, yes, YOUR bathroom, which is now completely and utterly kitten domain, and you spend every day cleaning out their litterbox (a kitten eats much more frequently than an adult cat and hence uses the litterbox much much much more frequently, now multiply that by four), and taking a plunger to the toilet because there is SO MUCH kitten crap it gets stuck, and taking out their newspapers and getting scratched from kitties unhappy that the floor is sliding out from under them, and washing all the carpet that they poo on when they can't find the litterbox, and scrubbing the bathroom floor, and brushing up all the litter which they trail everywhere, although of course it claims to be nonstick litter (there is no nonstick litter, give it up) and feeding them until you get really sick at the smell of canned kitty food, and put this on REPEAT every few hours because that's how kitties' time circle works, it's what happens every few hours. AND, if you let it sit for some extra hours (i.e. SCHOOLSCHOOLHINTHINTHINT) it is exponentially worse when you get back and there is all the more to do and. whee.
Oh, and, reading The Book of Night with Moon didn't help. now I feel like a kitty servant.
but good book though. I liked it a lot. :DD fwau~
That said, they are SO CUTE~~~~~
pictures taken, camera now out of batteries so I have to recharge before I can take more/post them. mmhmm.
Guess what I'm up doing every morning before everyone is awake? Guess what's the last thing I do before I go to bed? Guess what's the first thing I do when I get back from school?
it's not homework, that's for sure. >>
No seriously, you haven't lived until you've had FOUR kittens - not one, not three, FOUR - take over your bathroom, yes, YOUR bathroom, which is now completely and utterly kitten domain, and you spend every day cleaning out their litterbox (a kitten eats much more frequently than an adult cat and hence uses the litterbox much much much more frequently, now multiply that by four), and taking a plunger to the toilet because there is SO MUCH kitten crap it gets stuck, and taking out their newspapers and getting scratched from kitties unhappy that the floor is sliding out from under them, and washing all the carpet that they poo on when they can't find the litterbox, and scrubbing the bathroom floor, and brushing up all the litter which they trail everywhere, although of course it claims to be nonstick litter (there is no nonstick litter, give it up) and feeding them until you get really sick at the smell of canned kitty food, and put this on REPEAT every few hours because that's how kitties' time circle works, it's what happens every few hours. AND, if you let it sit for some extra hours (i.e. SCHOOLSCHOOLHINTHINTHINT) it is exponentially worse when you get back and there is all the more to do and. whee.
Oh, and, reading The Book of Night with Moon didn't help. now I feel like a kitty servant.
but good book though. I liked it a lot. :DD fwau~
That said, they are SO CUTE~~~~~
pictures taken, camera now out of batteries so I have to recharge before I can take more/post them. mmhmm.
for Lilyyyyy (as promised on facebook)
Sep. 8th, 2006 10:27 pmfor Lily. :)
XC tentative event schedule:
Lynbrook (already passed), Earlybird, Firebird, Saratoga Scrimmage, Central Park, Stanford, SCVAL Center, Monterey Bay, Crystal Springs, Lynbrook #2, SCVAL Finals, CCS Championships, State Finals
:DD which ones are Paly running? I'm not going to all of them but sometimes they're optional~
For that matter, which ones are MV running?
See you both around~~
And is it just me, or does Harker just not run with us at all? Like last year we had no meets against them whatsoever. :( As in, do our paths NEVER cross? Because that is SAD. T__T
In other news, I want to learn to speak Korean. It doesn't seem v. hard, esp with fluent Chinese and semifluent Japanese as backup, and EVERY DAY I am surrounded by Korean FOBS, and I am the only Chinese there, i.e. only nonKoreanspeakingperson aside from Elaine Higashi who I thought was Japanese but is half Jap and half Korean although she can't speak it, and they might be v. friendly and v. funny and v. easy to get along with (zomg I aspire to be more like Susan XD) but that doesn't change the fact that people talk... talk... KOREANGLISH amongst themselves and to me sometimes because I look Korean enough, and I sit there feeling absolutely dead center Chinese.
(lmao I know how you feel now Melody XD)
And since Kim's entire population of students, both Mrs. Kim AND Mr. Kim, are KOREAN, except me and mayyybe a few select others who I never happen to see around because they probably have age difference or level difference or something, and this Koreanness is going to surround me for 3 more years, and... yeah. yeah.
(srsly, every benefit concert, student gathering, whatever, is like this. OH and SJYS is the primarily Korean orchestra, vs. CYS which is v. Chinese, and ECYS which is pretty mixed, sooooooooo...)
I wonder where I can find someone to teach me Korean. Too bad Katie's back at Providence...
XC tentative event schedule:
:DD which ones are Paly running? I'm not going to all of them but sometimes they're optional~
For that matter, which ones are MV running?
See you both around~~
And is it just me, or does Harker just not run with us at all? Like last year we had no meets against them whatsoever. :( As in, do our paths NEVER cross? Because that is SAD. T__T
In other news, I want to learn to speak Korean. It doesn't seem v. hard, esp with fluent Chinese and semifluent Japanese as backup, and EVERY DAY I am surrounded by Korean FOBS, and I am the only Chinese there, i.e. only nonKoreanspeakingperson aside from Elaine Higashi who I thought was Japanese but is half Jap and half Korean although she can't speak it, and they might be v. friendly and v. funny and v. easy to get along with (zomg I aspire to be more like Susan XD) but that doesn't change the fact that people talk... talk... KOREANGLISH amongst themselves and to me sometimes because I look Korean enough, and I sit there feeling absolutely dead center Chinese.
(lmao I know how you feel now Melody XD)
And since Kim's entire population of students, both Mrs. Kim AND Mr. Kim, are KOREAN, except me and mayyybe a few select others who I never happen to see around because they probably have age difference or level difference or something, and this Koreanness is going to surround me for 3 more years, and... yeah. yeah.
(srsly, every benefit concert, student gathering, whatever, is like this. OH and SJYS is the primarily Korean orchestra, vs. CYS which is v. Chinese, and ECYS which is pretty mixed, sooooooooo...)
I wonder where I can find someone to teach me Korean. Too bad Katie's back at Providence...
semi-long post! in light of the weekend
Sep. 1st, 2006 08:46 pmHappy September all. :)
It's Friday! At last. Long week.
( trivial woes and the like )
In retrospect, it couldn't've been too bad because somehow during all of that, I managed to finish rereading Ender's Game + Ender's Shadow, and just finished Wicked. ^^ Planning to start Dune Messiah tonight. (btw I don't think I ever mentioned it, but at Berkeley this used book store I got all 3 of these books excepting Ender's Game, in relatively new condition, for only $20!!!! yayyyyyy I love Moe's Books.)
Ohoh and I have this English teacher called Mr. Rector. And he's pretty young, an alumni of the school actually, and Thomas sits behind me right and we both agreed that he reminds us of... guess who? MR. EAGEN! Fweeeee. Only, without the definitive East Coast feel, and not quite as thin and tall, more stocky. Still, cool guy.
Katie left; Adam's still home-- he took me to Jamba Juice yesterday after time trials...
Oh what else... I keep seeing Andrew Taw pop up around campus. He popped into orchestra and we had a nice long chat, and then today when the bell rang I was talking with Terran (incidentally he used to play SC!!! but he said he played random races/all races and doesn't sound like he was too hardcore so mmyeah) and Sir Taw popped by in the crowd and waved and I waved back because like, Iunno, it was v. normal because he was a senior and in the crowds just last year, you know, and about 20 seconds later I was like WAIT A MINUTE. You don't go here anymore! FAKER!!! but he was gone.
Oh Jenn Wu came back to visit Ms. Sutton. She looks diff with her new haircut, and she's filled out more since Aussie. Acne has receded, a LOT, and doesn't seem as snappish either. Not so recognizable really... Tiffa would've jawdropped. She did that when she saw Tiff Hu's new hair. She didn't recognize Tiff Hu at all actually. Even when I pointed her out. hehe.
Muahaha quartet stuff tomorrow. What funnnnnn.
2141 edit: Oh yeah, almost forgot. Louis, the almighty Tiffa wants it publicly known that you are a HYBRID. officially. because her word is law.
k that's all.
It's Friday! At last. Long week.
( trivial woes and the like )
In retrospect, it couldn't've been too bad because somehow during all of that, I managed to finish rereading Ender's Game + Ender's Shadow, and just finished Wicked. ^^ Planning to start Dune Messiah tonight. (btw I don't think I ever mentioned it, but at Berkeley this used book store I got all 3 of these books excepting Ender's Game, in relatively new condition, for only $20!!!! yayyyyyy I love Moe's Books.)
Ohoh and I have this English teacher called Mr. Rector. And he's pretty young, an alumni of the school actually, and Thomas sits behind me right and we both agreed that he reminds us of... guess who? MR. EAGEN! Fweeeee. Only, without the definitive East Coast feel, and not quite as thin and tall, more stocky. Still, cool guy.
Katie left; Adam's still home-- he took me to Jamba Juice yesterday after time trials...
Oh what else... I keep seeing Andrew Taw pop up around campus. He popped into orchestra and we had a nice long chat, and then today when the bell rang I was talking with Terran (incidentally he used to play SC!!! but he said he played random races/all races and doesn't sound like he was too hardcore so mmyeah) and Sir Taw popped by in the crowd and waved and I waved back because like, Iunno, it was v. normal because he was a senior and in the crowds just last year, you know, and about 20 seconds later I was like WAIT A MINUTE. You don't go here anymore! FAKER!!! but he was gone.
Oh Jenn Wu came back to visit Ms. Sutton. She looks diff with her new haircut, and she's filled out more since Aussie. Acne has receded, a LOT, and doesn't seem as snappish either. Not so recognizable really... Tiffa would've jawdropped. She did that when she saw Tiff Hu's new hair. She didn't recognize Tiff Hu at all actually. Even when I pointed her out. hehe.
Muahaha quartet stuff tomorrow. What funnnnnn.
2141 edit: Oh yeah, almost forgot. Louis, the almighty Tiffa wants it publicly known that you are a HYBRID. officially. because her word is law.
k that's all.
.... and I am off to rape more flists!
Aug. 6th, 2006 06:07 pmSo for the past week or so, I've been having these terribly mentally exhausting dreams and usually in the morning (when I half wake up and flop around on the bed trying to fall asleep again) I find I was crying in my sleep and I remember the dreams perfectly and everything (everything, like, the dream the crying the sleep the world and LIFE, everything) somehow makes perfect sense in completely senseless way and then I fall asleep again and wake up and become normal again and can't remember the dream except that I had them and that everything made SO MUCH SENSE and that I LOST IT and nothing makes sense anymore. T__T
可不可以讓我再,讓我再一次回到那個夢裡去(夢裡去),找自己... (找自己~)
Needless to say, this is severely screwing with my sleeping habits because it is not restful at ALL and has resulted in me getting really really sleepy at 8-9 PM on a Friday night and being really sleepy at 11 in the morning and totally not excited about the roller coasters (but then a few rides + whoa fluffified sugar! (i.e. cotton candy) kinda cured that).
Ohohoh so!!! We went to Great America yesterday. :DDDD
... Deb never showed. I cry. HOW WILL I EVER GET YOUR WOMBAT TO YOU?! T__T she said she didn't have a ticket (there were only 4 free tickets) and we were like AHHHH we could've paid for you! but she sounded really tired and she just got back from camp and all so eh. w/e. *sad*
So then! THERE WERE SO MANY PEOPLE. Obviously, it's summer and a weekend AND oh right this just happened to be the designated day for ALL the free tickets yes? So the people, they came in HORDES. Overwhelming waves of them!
We only went on Topgun once. And we never got to Invertigo or Drop Zone! *woe* BUTBUTBUT Melody and I went on the high skyflier thing. The one that has a giant arch and they sling you up really really really high and let go and you SWIIIIING back and forth like a pendulum. It cost money but omgwtf totally worth it. I got to pull the thing that let us go!
Guy: So, which one of you wants to pull the string?
Me: me!
Mel: HER. HERHERHER.
Me: ......
Mel: It's ALL YOUR FAULT. If we die it's all your fault. Got it? I want it very clear that everything is HER fault. One hundred percent!!!
Ehehehe. ^^
Fwee roller coaster rides aren't as fun/scary as they used to be. :( And I wasn't scared of the pendulum thing until we were slung all the way up to the top. And then I looked down and went "...shit." ==;;
Voice from faaar down: Beta 3 2 1, go!
Me: ...I'm pulling this thing now.
Mel: ...okay.
Both: ......
Me: *yank*
*PLUMMET*
Both: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *breath* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
after the initial plummet and the cord catches you, though, it's INCREDIBLY fun. A bit like delirium except 10 times better because you aren't squashed into a seat or clamped down or anything you're just FLYING. And it obv goes a lot higher, too.
We managed to drag Keropi onto Vortex and Topgun and Delirium and the boat thing that swings around upside-down. So she's gone from "AHHHH I HATE ROLLER COASTERS *hide*" to "Ehhh they're kind of bleh but I'll go on it..." and hopefully if she goes on some more she'll eventually be able to enjoy them! :D
We did Keropi-happy things too, like hair wrappings. Eliza/Kero both got a black/darkblue/lightblue scheme and Melody got an obnoxiously pink one XD and I got darkblue/green/yellow. It ate up lots of time because there was only one lady and one stand and she did EVERYONE one by one. And they missed the shipping or something so they had terrible color choices. T__T No white, which looks good with pretty much everything, and great quantities of pink but no red. wah~
Right. We also had this giant waterfight thing somewhere in Boomerang Bay on the water playstructure. Keropi somehow started a fight with this random guy who turned upon us viciously! >< We all got completely soaked through~
(Oh oh and you know all these fake Aussie signs they post there that I never ever noticed before? I RECOGNIZE THEM NOW!!! And they're not accurate, either. muahaha. *feels knowledgeable*)
mmmm got home 10-11 or so and dropped dead. :)
... why don't people ever chronicle these things anymore? *feels lonely, esp now that![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
cougarfang hast come here and doesn't update much anymore* =X
可不可以讓我再,讓我再一次回到那個夢裡去(夢裡去),找自己... (找自己~)
Needless to say, this is severely screwing with my sleeping habits because it is not restful at ALL and has resulted in me getting really really sleepy at 8-9 PM on a Friday night and being really sleepy at 11 in the morning and totally not excited about the roller coasters (but then a few rides + whoa fluffified sugar! (i.e. cotton candy) kinda cured that).
Ohohoh so!!! We went to Great America yesterday. :DDDD
... Deb never showed. I cry. HOW WILL I EVER GET YOUR WOMBAT TO YOU?! T__T she said she didn't have a ticket (there were only 4 free tickets) and we were like AHHHH we could've paid for you! but she sounded really tired and she just got back from camp and all so eh. w/e. *sad*
So then! THERE WERE SO MANY PEOPLE. Obviously, it's summer and a weekend AND oh right this just happened to be the designated day for ALL the free tickets yes? So the people, they came in HORDES. Overwhelming waves of them!
We only went on Topgun once. And we never got to Invertigo or Drop Zone! *woe* BUTBUTBUT Melody and I went on the high skyflier thing. The one that has a giant arch and they sling you up really really really high and let go and you SWIIIIING back and forth like a pendulum. It cost money but omgwtf totally worth it. I got to pull the thing that let us go!
Guy: So, which one of you wants to pull the string?
Me: me!
Mel: HER. HERHERHER.
Me: ......
Mel: It's ALL YOUR FAULT. If we die it's all your fault. Got it? I want it very clear that everything is HER fault. One hundred percent!!!
Ehehehe. ^^
Fwee roller coaster rides aren't as fun/scary as they used to be. :( And I wasn't scared of the pendulum thing until we were slung all the way up to the top. And then I looked down and went "...shit." ==;;
Voice from faaar down: Beta 3 2 1, go!
Me: ...I'm pulling this thing now.
Mel: ...okay.
Both: ......
Me: *yank*
*PLUMMET*
Both: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *breath* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
after the initial plummet and the cord catches you, though, it's INCREDIBLY fun. A bit like delirium except 10 times better because you aren't squashed into a seat or clamped down or anything you're just FLYING. And it obv goes a lot higher, too.
We managed to drag Keropi onto Vortex and Topgun and Delirium and the boat thing that swings around upside-down. So she's gone from "AHHHH I HATE ROLLER COASTERS *hide*" to "Ehhh they're kind of bleh but I'll go on it..." and hopefully if she goes on some more she'll eventually be able to enjoy them! :D
We did Keropi-happy things too, like hair wrappings. Eliza/Kero both got a black/darkblue/lightblue scheme and Melody got an obnoxiously pink one XD and I got darkblue/green/yellow. It ate up lots of time because there was only one lady and one stand and she did EVERYONE one by one. And they missed the shipping or something so they had terrible color choices. T__T No white, which looks good with pretty much everything, and great quantities of pink but no red. wah~
Right. We also had this giant waterfight thing somewhere in Boomerang Bay on the water playstructure. Keropi somehow started a fight with this random guy who turned upon us viciously! >< We all got completely soaked through~
(Oh oh and you know all these fake Aussie signs they post there that I never ever noticed before? I RECOGNIZE THEM NOW!!! And they're not accurate, either. muahaha. *feels knowledgeable*)
mmmm got home 10-11 or so and dropped dead. :)
... why don't people ever chronicle these things anymore? *feels lonely, esp now that
cougarfang hast come here and doesn't update much anymore* =X(no subject)
Aug. 4th, 2006 03:18 amKeropi, I am not going to PGA on Saturday. It's too much trouble bringing Jason and Andrew and SOMEHOW I DON'T THINK IT WILL BE FUN. You can give the free ticket to Debra. God knows she deserves it.
screw you. I hope you wake up in Hades. I'm going to go to BED now, like a SENSIBLE person.
=OOOOOOOOOOO I'M SORRY DELMAR I TRIED TO BREAK UP WITH MELODY BUT I COULDN'T DO IT. *SOB* I tried I really did!!! See look the proof! LOOK UP. &DOWN. waaaaaah I didn't want to cheat on you but I couldn't help myself because OUR LOVE IS EVERLASTING *SOB* I think we'll just have to face the facts and live and let live! I AM SO SORRY. I REALLY AM.
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Jul. 30th, 2006 11:00 amhandicap handicap polio don't be mean swallow the anger I'll just, you know, not explode in front of him but force my woes upon my flist, is all. :D;;
edit:
我受不了你的臉色了。受不了你一點小事就要發飆的死脾氣。一下好一下壞，誰知道啥時會 explode. 你病也病到個限度好不好?! 至少你不能 just stay OUT OF THE WAY? 你在那兒人家怎麼做事? 誰想過去挨你罵?! 開什麼玩笑...
靠，我快煩死了。Haven't you ruined my life enough yet? 真想撒手不幹了。明知不可能唉...
嗨，能才爽ㄚ... *daydreams*
Okay, first of all, THIS HAS GOT TO BE THE 1337EST SHIRT EVER~~~ Closeups: Front / Back
Eeeeee ♥♥ I'll still get a yearbook if they ever reach me on the waiting list, though, since I'm frickin' rich from Ch new years anyway. XD;;
We had an Australia rehearsal today! A lot less people. I really want to go on the Sydney bridgeclimb, so now I'm trying to find people age 17+ who are going on the bridgeclimb who might help me. (People under 17 can't buy tickets without an accompaniment.) Yeah I'm bugging Jeff Li about it (LI, IT'S LI NOT LEE I'VE BEEN SPELLING IT WRONG THE WHOLE YEAR T.T) btw guys that's the only reason I'm on Express so don't IM me right and Dorothy maybe but don't think so... eh yeah Austin seems to have forsaken the cause, if anything he's pretending I don't exist soooo in that light, I am leaving him v. well alone.
In other news! Today in Bio the rest of the people finished up their pig tests and I volunteered to clean up afterwards (the big cleanup job, not minor cleanup, because now the pigs are over and done for GOOD) along with half the class, and guess what job I got assigned to do!
I get to wash the tools! Which involves grabbing handfuls of dangerous scalpels and scissors and tweezers and BENT BLUNT PROBES zomg etc and putting them in soapy water, then sponging them one by one and putting more handfuls into clean water, and then putting them on newspaper.
So now I have minute cuts all over my hand. Because I scorned the gloves. But whatever, our school tools are really, really blunt (wtf scalpels are supposed to be SHARP dammit *harkerspoiled* you should've seen us trying to saw through the stupid heart) so it doesn't make too much of a difference.
Wheeee adv. audition tomorrow. Finally. XDD
2203 edit: yeah guys if you IMed me or anything Express killed it.
( rawr )
Eeeeee ♥♥ I'll still get a yearbook if they ever reach me on the waiting list, though, since I'm frickin' rich from Ch new years anyway. XD;;
We had an Australia rehearsal today! A lot less people. I really want to go on the Sydney bridgeclimb, so now I'm trying to find people age 17+ who are going on the bridgeclimb who might help me. (People under 17 can't buy tickets without an accompaniment.) Yeah I'm bugging Jeff Li about it (LI, IT'S LI NOT LEE I'VE BEEN SPELLING IT WRONG THE WHOLE YEAR T.T) btw guys that's the only reason I'm on Express so don't IM me right and Dorothy maybe but don't think so... eh yeah Austin seems to have forsaken the cause, if anything he's pretending I don't exist soooo in that light, I am leaving him v. well alone.
In other news! Today in Bio the rest of the people finished up their pig tests and I volunteered to clean up afterwards (the big cleanup job, not minor cleanup, because now the pigs are over and done for GOOD) along with half the class, and guess what job I got assigned to do!
I get to wash the tools! Which involves grabbing handfuls of dangerous scalpels and scissors and tweezers and BENT BLUNT PROBES zomg etc and putting them in soapy water, then sponging them one by one and putting more handfuls into clean water, and then putting them on newspaper.
So now I have minute cuts all over my hand. Because I scorned the gloves. But whatever, our school tools are really, really blunt (wtf scalpels are supposed to be SHARP dammit *harkerspoiled* you should've seen us trying to saw through the stupid heart) so it doesn't make too much of a difference.
Wheeee adv. audition tomorrow. Finally. XDD
2203 edit: yeah guys if you IMed me or anything Express killed it.
( rawr )
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Jun. 3rd, 2006 03:21 pmLooking at the old essay and all the new requirements makes my head hurt.
It'd be so much easier just to write something completely new, instead of force-editing this the way she wants it.
ALFJIOQUPIW{PZIDSJASLDJ ><
1742 edit: My brain huuuurts...
1753 edit: I forgot what speed dial # mom was. I swear, I tried EVERY SINGLE NUMBER on there before I tried 7. EVERY SINGLE ONE. And then she didn't pick up. >>;;
I feel incredibly sluggish today. Dunno why.
1809 edit: Brutal Honesty Meme
.... :D
^ for abovementioned meme, make sure you click REPLY TO COMMENT and not POST NEW COMMENT. :)
1939 edit: YAAH I can't figure out this speed dial thing. I get speed dial 1-9 and all, but so it says "speed dial 41" for someone, so I try dialing 41 and holding the 1, and then it dials for speed dial 1 etc and I end up calling Delmar or someone and not the 41 person. (And Del and Mel and Amy? YOU THREE. Suck at picking up phones. The few times it connected before I could hang up I actually waited around until it ringed itself out and went to voicemail. And pff you all failed.) If I hold them both? nothing happens. If I dial 41 and send it tells me we're sorry we can't connect or something. Same with *41 or #41 and other variations thereof...
Does anyone even know what I'm talking about? _ _;;
It'd be so much easier just to write something completely new, instead of force-editing this the way she wants it.
ALFJIOQUPIW{PZIDSJASLDJ ><
1742 edit: My brain huuuurts...
1753 edit: I forgot what speed dial # mom was. I swear, I tried EVERY SINGLE NUMBER on there before I tried 7. EVERY SINGLE ONE. And then she didn't pick up. >>;;
I feel incredibly sluggish today. Dunno why.
1809 edit: Brutal Honesty Meme
.... :D
^ for abovementioned meme, make sure you click REPLY TO COMMENT and not POST NEW COMMENT. :)
1939 edit: YAAH I can't figure out this speed dial thing. I get speed dial 1-9 and all, but so it says "speed dial 41" for someone, so I try dialing 41 and holding the 1, and then it dials for speed dial 1 etc and I end up calling Delmar or someone and not the 41 person. (And Del and Mel and Amy? YOU THREE. Suck at picking up phones. The few times it connected before I could hang up I actually waited around until it ringed itself out and went to voicemail. And pff you all failed.) If I hold them both? nothing happens. If I dial 41 and send it tells me we're sorry we can't connect or something. Same with *41 or #41 and other variations thereof...
Does anyone even know what I'm talking about? _ _;;
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May. 13th, 2006 06:53 amWhaaaat dammit the performance thing is TOMORROW eee.... actually tomorrow's in 7 minutes. How depressing.
We fail so bad. >>;; Well, it is decent, but the FANS... frak, Lu lao-shr should stop relying on Zhang lao-shr for props...
Next Sunday guess what I have! 1.5 hrs of piano group lesson (pre-recital) in the morning, dance class right after lunch, guzheng class, then a CELLO RECITAL. AAAAAAAAAH~
*heartattackdie*
Sigh.
All the other students under Kim make me feel so incredibly inferior. >< Regardless of what you people say.
We fail so bad. >>;; Well, it is decent, but the FANS... frak, Lu lao-shr should stop relying on Zhang lao-shr for props...
Next Sunday guess what I have! 1.5 hrs of piano group lesson (pre-recital) in the morning, dance class right after lunch, guzheng class, then a CELLO RECITAL. AAAAAAAAAH~
*heartattackdie*
Sigh.
All the other students under Kim make me feel so incredibly inferior. >< Regardless of what you people say.
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Apr. 25th, 2006 05:50 pmAhahaha!
"Life is pain. Anyone who says otherwise is selling something."
*ephemerally amused*
1918 edit: Feck. Dad just turned my mood completely upside-down. wtf. and, dammit, I know what he's thinking, I know what he thinks about me, and I know how it's completely warped, screwed over, and hell there are so many things I want to shout at him to justify myself but he'll never ask, so I'll never explain. He's tired and angry and too tired to be angry, so he's just swallowing it and if he's doing that there's nothing for me to say, it's like the section in 天龍八部 where 蕭峰 tells that story and... ugh.
2241 edit: The hell, he's done NOTHING but get mad at me all day, I'm sick of it, and I know he's going to get mad at me later coz I screwed over mom's computer when I was researching on it and wasn't being careful and was treating it like my computer (yeah it's an old crappy mac but that also means it never gets infected with ANYTHING) and there's mild ad-ware on it now and that's totally my fault and he can get rid of it really easily because mad-engineer person and all, but I'm still going to get lectured for it and in that he's completely justified, I know I know, but just thinking about more anger and talking and lectures and general pissiness makes me tired. and probably restrictions on mom's computer and compromises and maybe groundings or the laying of laws (been throughhhh this befoooore) and just ehhhhh. wtf was wrong with him today anyway?
2316 edit: Daaaamn. My life at school is so happy. And then I come home and I'm still happy, and then it becomes terrible. And I feel like I'd be happier if I could actually cry, but when I think about it honestly, I don't think I'd actually be. =X Anyway. will be happy at school again tmr. XD
0036 edit: Look it's tomorrow!
I feel like an insomniac.
I also feel huge guilttrip.
Today was like, one of the best days, esp with Tiff and Tiff at Tiff's place, until maybe. 6 PM. Amazing how many things can go wrong. ==;;
Interesting also how I diee when I keep the majority of everything to myself, coz it isn't even like 蕭十一郎's 只要你我倆人知道，旁人不瞭解我又何足道哉？ There's no 風四娘 for me to speak of, just the 我. _ _;; And it seems I fail at that. Ahaha but too lazy to babble now. Life shall suddenly be better in the morning, because for some reason it always is... ^^;
"Life is pain. Anyone who says otherwise is selling something."
*ephemerally amused*
1918 edit: Feck. Dad just turned my mood completely upside-down. wtf. and, dammit, I know what he's thinking, I know what he thinks about me, and I know how it's completely warped, screwed over, and hell there are so many things I want to shout at him to justify myself but he'll never ask, so I'll never explain. He's tired and angry and too tired to be angry, so he's just swallowing it and if he's doing that there's nothing for me to say, it's like the section in 天龍八部 where 蕭峰 tells that story and... ugh.
2241 edit: The hell, he's done NOTHING but get mad at me all day, I'm sick of it, and I know he's going to get mad at me later coz I screwed over mom's computer when I was researching on it and wasn't being careful and was treating it like my computer (yeah it's an old crappy mac but that also means it never gets infected with ANYTHING) and there's mild ad-ware on it now and that's totally my fault and he can get rid of it really easily because mad-engineer person and all, but I'm still going to get lectured for it and in that he's completely justified, I know I know, but just thinking about more anger and talking and lectures and general pissiness makes me tired. and probably restrictions on mom's computer and compromises and maybe groundings or the laying of laws (been throughhhh this befoooore) and just ehhhhh. wtf was wrong with him today anyway?
2316 edit: Daaaamn. My life at school is so happy. And then I come home and I'm still happy, and then it becomes terrible. And I feel like I'd be happier if I could actually cry, but when I think about it honestly, I don't think I'd actually be. =X Anyway. will be happy at school again tmr. XD
0036 edit: Look it's tomorrow!
I feel like an insomniac.
I also feel huge guilttrip.
Today was like, one of the best days, esp with Tiff and Tiff at Tiff's place, until maybe. 6 PM. Amazing how many things can go wrong. ==;;
Interesting also how I diee when I keep the majority of everything to myself, coz it isn't even like 蕭十一郎's 只要你我倆人知道，旁人不瞭解我又何足道哉？ There's no 風四娘 for me to speak of, just the 我. _ _;; And it seems I fail at that. Ahaha but too lazy to babble now. Life shall suddenly be better in the morning, because for some reason it always is... ^^;
.... come on, Eliza, I'm right and you KNOW it.
New conversation started at 4/18/06 10:29:21 PM.
thethirdChang: ...
thethirdChang: oy
kaloryth: yes?
thethirdChang: ......
thethirdChang: how long do you plan on keeping this up?
kaloryth: what?
thethirdChang: THIS
kaloryth: this...
thethirdChang: lack of substantial reply
thethirdChang: lack of friendliness
thethirdChang: lack of happiness
thethirdChang: or at least, that's what it feels like from the way you talk
kaloryth: I dunno
kaloryth: sure
thethirdChang: what do you hope to achieve with this?
kaloryth: nothing
thethirdChang: ... orly
thethirdChang: what were you trying to achieve with your TANTRUM?
kaloryth: why couldn't you just leave me alone
kaloryth: and be happy like everyone else
thethirdChang: you think they were happy?
thethirdChang: maybe the 3 people who fell asleep in happycandyland
kaloryth: why didn't you just go away
kaloryth: why didn't you just listen to me
thethirdChang: ELIZA
thethirdChang: GET OVER IT
thethirdChang: you're going to have to face it sooner or later
thethirdChang: there are people who care about you whether you like it or not
thethirdChang: and it's not like you can change it or they can change it just like that
thethirdChang: and if you're in a corner wallowing in selfpity
thethirdChang: you think they can REALLY BE HAPPY?
kaloryth: they can be happy without me
kaloryth: and that's all that matters
thethirdChang: LISTEN TO YOURSELF
“kaloryth” signed off at 10:38:55 PM.
You're not hearing anything I say. "They can be happy without me?" HELLO, reference the last thing I JUST said. You're NOT LISTENING. You don't want to hear me. You don't want to hear what I have to say. but you KNOW I'm right. You're not going to achieve anything drowning yourself in self pity and feeling noble like you're sacrificing yourself for the sake of your friends, because FACE IT. That's NOT what you're doing.
Yesterday I was angsting because Delmar and I were talking about you, and don't start accusing now because you must admit people have every right to be worried about you after your rather... drastic actions on Saturday... and I mentioned certain things and then felt terribly terribly mean afterwards because I felt like I was accusing you... and now I must admit it rather vexes me to find out that I'm right. (From rather more sources than I have quoted above, but I won't bother quoting it all, and also certain people wish to remain anonymous.)
Now I'm just vexed. You're being completely unfair to people who care about you.
kimimaro08: i have no idea what to do
kimimaro08: i just don't know what to do
kimimaro08: yea, i just don't know what to do
kimimaro08: and i feel like this is my fault
kimimaro08: but i don't know why i feel that way
kimimaro08: i know
kimimaro08: i just don't know what to do
kimimaro08: :-(
kimimaro08: i just have no idea what to do
kimimaro08: i can't fall asleep anymore
kimimaro08: :-(
kimimaro08: i just don't know what to do
Well. I don't have timestamps, but I swear all of this was CPed in earnest, and in chronological order for the most part (the maj of the convo is omitted, obv, otherwise this post will kill flists), but...
Come on. You're just not being fair to Alex. I feel more sorry for him than I do for you. And all those peoople out there who care about you -- don't deny it, there are TONS of people out there who care about you -- they worry, and don't COMMAND them to stop worrying (because "I'm worthless, my existence isn't important"... well face it, it IS IMPORTANT to certain people). You think worrying is something they can control?
You tell them not to worry about you, to ignore you, you're fine. Know what, 'liza? You're OBVIOUSLY not fine. And if we do that, you think we can have it on our conscience to just let you wither away, and do nothing?
I am somewhat disappointed, Eliza. If you really want to "make your friends happy," SNAP OUT OF IT FIRST. You're better than this. Instead of pitying yourself for being left out when you're really leaving YOURSELF out, join in the fun! You have every right to. Really. Grow up. Get over it. Be more mature, dammit.
I know you don't want to hear this, because no duh if you face it it'll make you feel terrible, but you NEED to. Face it first, recognize what you're doing, and then FIX it. Don't keep lying to yourself. You'll just fall into a pit of no return. _ _;;
If you honestly think the world would've been better if you never existed (and personally, I don't think you *really* believe that), well, you CAN'T HAVE NEVER EXISTED. I said this already. So instead of hiding awayyy and trying to make yourself disappear which isn't going to work because you can't, you can't, you just can't... why don't you just FACE that fact, and try to improve so that the world WON'T be a better place without you? Why don't you try to make the world a better place so that you really DO have worth in the world?
I don't know, I don't feel guilt anymore. You know what? Perhaps I AM being a crappy terrible thrice-damned friend. Maybe I'm being horribly horribly horribly mean and evil. Well, the post is public; other people can decide that. But well. If I am, I might as well be a crappy terrible thrice-damned HONEST friend. Because this is honestly what I think, I don't feel like lying to you, I don't feel like lying to myself, and everyone else can make what they will of this. Mmk?
No one wants you to stay like this, Eliza. Be honest to yourself for once.
2347 edit: and please please don't do anything stupid, okay? If you hurt yourself everyone will be sad and you know it... :(
New conversation started at 4/18/06 10:29:21 PM.
thethirdChang: ...
thethirdChang: oy
kaloryth: yes?
thethirdChang: ......
thethirdChang: how long do you plan on keeping this up?
kaloryth: what?
thethirdChang: THIS
kaloryth: this...
thethirdChang: lack of substantial reply
thethirdChang: lack of friendliness
thethirdChang: lack of happiness
thethirdChang: or at least, that's what it feels like from the way you talk
kaloryth: I dunno
kaloryth: sure
thethirdChang: what do you hope to achieve with this?
kaloryth: nothing
thethirdChang: ... orly
thethirdChang: what were you trying to achieve with your TANTRUM?
kaloryth: why couldn't you just leave me alone
kaloryth: and be happy like everyone else
thethirdChang: you think they were happy?
thethirdChang: maybe the 3 people who fell asleep in happycandyland
kaloryth: why didn't you just go away
kaloryth: why didn't you just listen to me
thethirdChang: ELIZA
thethirdChang: GET OVER IT
thethirdChang: you're going to have to face it sooner or later
thethirdChang: there are people who care about you whether you like it or not
thethirdChang: and it's not like you can change it or they can change it just like that
thethirdChang: and if you're in a corner wallowing in selfpity
thethirdChang: you think they can REALLY BE HAPPY?
kaloryth: they can be happy without me
kaloryth: and that's all that matters
thethirdChang: LISTEN TO YOURSELF
“kaloryth” signed off at 10:38:55 PM.
You're not hearing anything I say. "They can be happy without me?" HELLO, reference the last thing I JUST said. You're NOT LISTENING. You don't want to hear me. You don't want to hear what I have to say. but you KNOW I'm right. You're not going to achieve anything drowning yourself in self pity and feeling noble like you're sacrificing yourself for the sake of your friends, because FACE IT. That's NOT what you're doing.
Yesterday I was angsting because Delmar and I were talking about you, and don't start accusing now because you must admit people have every right to be worried about you after your rather... drastic actions on Saturday... and I mentioned certain things and then felt terribly terribly mean afterwards because I felt like I was accusing you... and now I must admit it rather vexes me to find out that I'm right. (From rather more sources than I have quoted above, but I won't bother quoting it all, and also certain people wish to remain anonymous.)
Now I'm just vexed. You're being completely unfair to people who care about you.
kimimaro08: i have no idea what to do
kimimaro08: i just don't know what to do
kimimaro08: yea, i just don't know what to do
kimimaro08: and i feel like this is my fault
kimimaro08: but i don't know why i feel that way
kimimaro08: i know
kimimaro08: i just don't know what to do
kimimaro08: :-(
kimimaro08: i just have no idea what to do
kimimaro08: i can't fall asleep anymore
kimimaro08: :-(
kimimaro08: i just don't know what to do
Well. I don't have timestamps, but I swear all of this was CPed in earnest, and in chronological order for the most part (the maj of the convo is omitted, obv, otherwise this post will kill flists), but...
Come on. You're just not being fair to Alex. I feel more sorry for him than I do for you. And all those peoople out there who care about you -- don't deny it, there are TONS of people out there who care about you -- they worry, and don't COMMAND them to stop worrying (because "I'm worthless, my existence isn't important"... well face it, it IS IMPORTANT to certain people). You think worrying is something they can control?
You tell them not to worry about you, to ignore you, you're fine. Know what, 'liza? You're OBVIOUSLY not fine. And if we do that, you think we can have it on our conscience to just let you wither away, and do nothing?
I am somewhat disappointed, Eliza. If you really want to "make your friends happy," SNAP OUT OF IT FIRST. You're better than this. Instead of pitying yourself for being left out when you're really leaving YOURSELF out, join in the fun! You have every right to. Really. Grow up. Get over it. Be more mature, dammit.
I know you don't want to hear this, because no duh if you face it it'll make you feel terrible, but you NEED to. Face it first, recognize what you're doing, and then FIX it. Don't keep lying to yourself. You'll just fall into a pit of no return. _ _;;
If you honestly think the world would've been better if you never existed (and personally, I don't think you *really* believe that), well, you CAN'T HAVE NEVER EXISTED. I said this already. So instead of hiding awayyy and trying to make yourself disappear which isn't going to work because you can't, you can't, you just can't... why don't you just FACE that fact, and try to improve so that the world WON'T be a better place without you? Why don't you try to make the world a better place so that you really DO have worth in the world?
I don't know, I don't feel guilt anymore. You know what? Perhaps I AM being a crappy terrible thrice-damned friend. Maybe I'm being horribly horribly horribly mean and evil. Well, the post is public; other people can decide that. But well. If I am, I might as well be a crappy terrible thrice-damned HONEST friend. Because this is honestly what I think, I don't feel like lying to you, I don't feel like lying to myself, and everyone else can make what they will of this. Mmk?
No one wants you to stay like this, Eliza. Be honest to yourself for once.
2347 edit: and please please don't do anything stupid, okay? If you hurt yourself everyone will be sad and you know it... :(
Daaaaaamn I want to cry now.
I feel like a complete utter and total bitch. and really really really mean. and it's killing me.
but you know what, if I'm going to be a terrible person I shall be honest about it, coz 真小人 > 偽君子. And apparently I can't abide lying to myself anyway. If I've got thoughts I always end up talking about it with SOMEONE. And usu the journal. Seriously. if you read this, you know pretty much EVERYTHING about my life. whoa what a scary thought.
Okay, now that I am somewhat distracted from selfdisgust and am less inclined to have insomnia, I will go to bed.
4/18/06 1654 edit: _ _;; Well. thanks. I still feel totally mean, just for THINKING it, but I'll just ignore that for now... you know I find I'm really good at pushing things temporarily to a corner of my mind and ignoring them for like... a time being... maybe it's because my life's so busy I can't afford to dwell on things too much. ==;; (i.e. must FORCE mind blank in WHATEVER emotional state to concentrate on cello/piano practice because I just... um, have to, or else... etc.)
I feel like a complete utter and total bitch. and really really really mean. and it's killing me.
but you know what, if I'm going to be a terrible person I shall be honest about it, coz 真小人 > 偽君子. And apparently I can't abide lying to myself anyway. If I've got thoughts I always end up talking about it with SOMEONE. And usu the journal. Seriously. if you read this, you know pretty much EVERYTHING about my life. whoa what a scary thought.
Okay, now that I am somewhat distracted from selfdisgust and am less inclined to have insomnia, I will go to bed.
4/18/06 1654 edit: _ _;; Well. thanks. I still feel totally mean, just for THINKING it, but I'll just ignore that for now... you know I find I'm really good at pushing things temporarily to a corner of my mind and ignoring them for like... a time being... maybe it's because my life's so busy I can't afford to dwell on things too much. ==;; (i.e. must FORCE mind blank in WHATEVER emotional state to concentrate on cello/piano practice because I just... um, have to, or else... etc.)
First things first... Delmar asked me if I wanted to do anything next Saturday, and I thought about it, and I had a BRILLIANT idea.
k guys, if, IF I really am free next Saturday (note: NEXT Saturday, not the coming Saturday), and no last minute concert/recital/class/dance performance pops up, WHO IS UP FOR A FREELANCE GAME OF FRISBEE?!?!
Anytime past 1PM; SHS fields, if it's taken we can go to the upper field, if that's taken, dammit, go to the quad then, no one will be there, meet there or go to my house and I can walk you there... whatever. figure out the details later.
Point is. if I'm free, WHO WANTS TO GO? I miss seeing you people. AND![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
kuroikisei somehow sent Melody home the other day and... er. rubbed it in my face. >>; Kuroi's like that.
Ahem. I'll ask around later tonight, for the benefit of you uncool people who do not possess/check your livejournals, but yes. now that that's taken care of... my day was, eh...
( Idle bio talk... then A FREAKY FREAKY THING )
In other news, Francisco PISSED ME OFF today. He's normally a nice man, crappy teacher, but hell, even THAT's beginning to deteriorate and it's just pathetic.
Two things: ( VENTING )
2126 edit: Feck, I am EXTREMELY pissed off now. It is just SO unspeakably deplorable to get my period NOW, of all times. and I mean, NOW. even yesterday would've been better. Just. SCREWIT. this ensures that during the meet tomorrow is when I'll be having the *MOST* severe menstrual cramps of the effin' MONTH, and that is just. .... KILLER.
rar. my best advice for you people now is to STAY OUT OF MY WAY. Because whatever empty wishes and sympathy you have for me, it doesn't change ANYTHING, and it only emphasizes that it can't change anything. and I'm in a crappy enough mood right now that I won't bother to be polite, I'll THROW your words violently back at you so they sting you in the backlash. *glare*
k guys, if, IF I really am free next Saturday (note: NEXT Saturday, not the coming Saturday), and no last minute concert/recital/class/dance performance pops up, WHO IS UP FOR A FREELANCE GAME OF FRISBEE?!?!
Anytime past 1PM; SHS fields, if it's taken we can go to the upper field, if that's taken, dammit, go to the quad then, no one will be there, meet there or go to my house and I can walk you there... whatever. figure out the details later.
Point is. if I'm free, WHO WANTS TO GO? I miss seeing you people. AND
kuroikisei somehow sent Melody home the other day and... er. rubbed it in my face. >>; Kuroi's like that.Ahem. I'll ask around later tonight, for the benefit of you uncool people who do not possess/check your livejournals, but yes. now that that's taken care of... my day was, eh...
( Idle bio talk... then A FREAKY FREAKY THING )
In other news, Francisco PISSED ME OFF today. He's normally a nice man, crappy teacher, but hell, even THAT's beginning to deteriorate and it's just pathetic.
Two things: ( VENTING )
2126 edit: Feck, I am EXTREMELY pissed off now. It is just SO unspeakably deplorable to get my period NOW, of all times. and I mean, NOW. even yesterday would've been better. Just. SCREWIT. this ensures that during the meet tomorrow is when I'll be having the *MOST* severe menstrual cramps of the effin' MONTH, and that is just. .... KILLER.
rar. my best advice for you people now is to STAY OUT OF MY WAY. Because whatever empty wishes and sympathy you have for me, it doesn't change ANYTHING, and it only emphasizes that it can't change anything. and I'm in a crappy enough mood right now that I won't bother to be polite, I'll THROW your words violently back at you so they sting you in the backlash. *glare*
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... >.> Orchestra rehearsals get so... stuffy... and cramped...
k, it was okay for like. an hour. 'coz of the new seating, and Andrew wasn't there. and then Austin came late and sat in Andrew's seat, and he plays with these big flourishes. and his bow was v. scary. So I moved my seat over to the left! And then, because Kimberly's sitting somewhat at an angle, when I switch strings or play on the D string I would hit the edge of her chair. So I had to lean back and if I forgot my bow suffered. So then! I try and move the seat back a bit. But. it won't go back. BECAUSE I had moved to the left, and since the basses were so cramped behind us (8 of them stuffed into this little corner), their stand was right up against my chair and pretty much right above my head! And I don't want to move BACK to the right because Austin's there, and I can't move my chair around at all and it was just BLAH. and the room kept getting steadily stuffier and stuffier as it always does, and I didn't have enough rosin on my bow, and... =.=
Drill drill drill. I feel like maybe I should practice the orchestra music a bit, but I mean aft 2 hours or so of instrumenting I look at the orchestra music, and, just.... >>;; yeah.
still don't have the last page to mars
... >.> Orchestra rehearsals get so... stuffy... and cramped...
k, it was okay for like. an hour. 'coz of the new seating, and Andrew wasn't there. and then Austin came late and sat in Andrew's seat, and he plays with these big flourishes. and his bow was v. scary. So I moved my seat over to the left! And then, because Kimberly's sitting somewhat at an angle, when I switch strings or play on the D string I would hit the edge of her chair. So I had to lean back and if I forgot my bow suffered. So then! I try and move the seat back a bit. But. it won't go back. BECAUSE I had moved to the left, and since the basses were so cramped behind us (8 of them stuffed into this little corner), their stand was right up against my chair and pretty much right above my head! And I don't want to move BACK to the right because Austin's there, and I can't move my chair around at all and it was just BLAH. and the room kept getting steadily stuffier and stuffier as it always does, and I didn't have enough rosin on my bow, and... =.=
Drill drill drill. I feel like maybe I should practice the orchestra music a bit, but I mean aft 2 hours or so of instrumenting I look at the orchestra music, and, just.... >>;; yeah.
still don't have the last page to mars
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Mar. 1st, 2006 07:05 pmAlvin! You shame the cello section so!
( Brief music ranting )
In other news... we (me, Lisa, and Charity) went off the road under a fence through a deer path to these trails in the middle of nowhere! Followed them all the way to Lookout, and Lisa heard a waterfall so we went further, and found these rapids. and a broken bridge.
So we climbed our way up on the rocks. And the fallen trees. And the occasional dirt mound. Slipperyyy~ ^^;
Conclusion: Climbing down rocks in the middle of rapids is a lot harder than climbing up.
Haha we barely ran at all. And we were out a lot longer than 30 minutes.
We probably should've just taken the day off. Lots did, on acct of the meet tmr.
I found out Lisa's a halfblood! I kinda knew it unconsciously, but it clicked today when her mom drove by and waved (a totally Asian lady). Durrr that's how she knew my Japanese vocab~
2011: My jersey's too big. They ran out of smalls and mediums. >.> And the shorts are uber short. ALL female running shorts are uber short. Even the ones we normally wear. I'll bet that's why these stupid hispanic guys keep whistling and clapping and hooting when they drive by. Idiots. One guy was like: "You're all beautiful." Uh, what's beautiful? The back of our heads? He drove past in a CAR, for heaven's sake, you can't see much at that speed...
2209: Laa~ am happy~ and accomplished~ done with practice, and all hw due tmr (but I have to do hw due Fri now 'coz I won't have time tmr), but I like it this way, it's the same way back in Harker... there's just that subtle diff in feeling when doing hw that's due immediately and doing stuff in advance. Staying off AIM does me good.
Taking a break from this work since it's not rushed. Started some scribbles a while back, may develop into something... Whee and translating's going okay. Nothing much other than BR. I discovered that I've stayed off IRC so long my nick unregistered. =.= And I lost my AOP position. I'll have to catch Earthy sometime about that.
2218: Really Delmar, could you please not blacken my mood like that, I don't appreciate it... just. worry less. srsly.
( Brief music ranting )
In other news... we (me, Lisa, and Charity) went off the road under a fence through a deer path to these trails in the middle of nowhere! Followed them all the way to Lookout, and Lisa heard a waterfall so we went further, and found these rapids. and a broken bridge.
So we climbed our way up on the rocks. And the fallen trees. And the occasional dirt mound. Slipperyyy~ ^^;
Conclusion: Climbing down rocks in the middle of rapids is a lot harder than climbing up.
Haha we barely ran at all. And we were out a lot longer than 30 minutes.
We probably should've just taken the day off. Lots did, on acct of the meet tmr.
I found out Lisa's a halfblood! I kinda knew it unconsciously, but it clicked today when her mom drove by and waved (a totally Asian lady). Durrr that's how she knew my Japanese vocab~
2011: My jersey's too big. They ran out of smalls and mediums. >.> And the shorts are uber short. ALL female running shorts are uber short. Even the ones we normally wear. I'll bet that's why these stupid hispanic guys keep whistling and clapping and hooting when they drive by. Idiots. One guy was like: "You're all beautiful." Uh, what's beautiful? The back of our heads? He drove past in a CAR, for heaven's sake, you can't see much at that speed...
2209: Laa~ am happy~ and accomplished~ done with practice, and all hw due tmr (but I have to do hw due Fri now 'coz I won't have time tmr), but I like it this way, it's the same way back in Harker... there's just that subtle diff in feeling when doing hw that's due immediately and doing stuff in advance. Staying off AIM does me good.
Taking a break from this work since it's not rushed. Started some scribbles a while back, may develop into something... Whee and translating's going okay. Nothing much other than BR. I discovered that I've stayed off IRC so long my nick unregistered. =.= And I lost my AOP position. I'll have to catch Earthy sometime about that.
2218: Really Delmar, could you please not blacken my mood like that, I don't appreciate it... just. worry less. srsly.
Cookie on top of the ice cream, he calls it.
Cookies are good to bake, good to sell, good to feed, good to eat.... not to RUN.
I hate running "cookies." more than I hate running half-miles.
I'm going to be sick now. ><
In other news, thankeewatashiwaying for the new helmet. ^^ 'slots better than my old makeshift one.
2138: ( Venting )
Cookies are good to bake, good to sell, good to feed, good to eat.... not to RUN.
I hate running "cookies." more than I hate running half-miles.
I'm going to be sick now. ><
In other news, thankee
watashiwaying for the new helmet. ^^ 'slots better than my old makeshift one.2138: ( Venting )
Hua-lalala-la-la tian zai xia yu~~
Feb. 27th, 2006 04:19 pmIt's raining, it's pouring~ like hell~ outside~
I should know. I walked home in it. =.=
Actually not really. It only looks bad from the inside. It's not that bad when you're actually in it. No SHEETS and TORRENTS of water where water just comes pounding down at you and you're soaked no matter which way you turn; it just rained hard enough to soak through a layer or two, nothing major. :)
That is not to say I'm not slightly vexed; I am. That's the last time I'm listening to my dear MOTHER again.
This morning I was halfway out the driveway with my bike. I was, I swear, and she dragged me in. I would get wet, she said, she'll drive. Never mind the fact that I'm wet anyway and wouldn't get much wetter biking the rest of the way. We drove.
'course, at the end of the day there's no one to pick me up. Dad wouldn't pick up.
The irony. Probably much wetter now than I ever would've been on bike.
Oh well. Walking home in the rain isn't bad. :) Just. I would be a lot happier if I could do it without the stupid heavy backpack weighing me down. And then I have to worry about the books inside. >>
And I need to shower and change out of my clothes because they're a dead giveaway. Can't let 'em know I walked home. 'coz, guess what, I'LL be the one getting lectured if they find out. >> Twisted logic. Either that, or dad'll blame himself and keep following me nattering and apologising until I want to scream at him SHUT UP, it doesn't matter, I don't care, can't you see I'm FINE, let me do my homework. Except if I did I would get lectured for speaking to adults that way.
As for actual school, 'twas okay. Okay. What a boring word.
Lots of people kept poking my hair. I found it funny. Tiff dropped her flute when she saw me. a bit overkill... flutes are expensive. >>; Ariel kept looking at me with this funny look, and kept starting to speak but then not. And Austin passed by and he stared, and then he doubled back and poked his head out from behind the wall like some anime character and stared more to make sure I'm me. And THEN when Ariel heard the word haircut she snapped like OMFG ADELA THAT'S IT I KNEW SOMETHING LOOKED A BIT QUEER ABOUT YOU TODAY... yadayada.
Everyone mentioned it, though. I can't even name them all. Even people like Brandon, and randomer people like Carol. >>;; It got a bit tiresome...
Eh, shower now. I'm glad - no track today. Not like he can make us run in that kind of rain...
1932: Aiyaaa just my luck. >> The A string on my cello broke. I guess 'sbeen a long time since I touched it...
1943: Yay go dad! He fixed it. ^^
2132: Crappu, I'm starting to feel awake again. It's... 5 AM in Taiwan now? Crap crap I don't want to stay up another night...
I should know. I walked home in it. =.=
Actually not really. It only looks bad from the inside. It's not that bad when you're actually in it. No SHEETS and TORRENTS of water where water just comes pounding down at you and you're soaked no matter which way you turn; it just rained hard enough to soak through a layer or two, nothing major. :)
That is not to say I'm not slightly vexed; I am. That's the last time I'm listening to my dear MOTHER again.
This morning I was halfway out the driveway with my bike. I was, I swear, and she dragged me in. I would get wet, she said, she'll drive. Never mind the fact that I'm wet anyway and wouldn't get much wetter biking the rest of the way. We drove.
'course, at the end of the day there's no one to pick me up. Dad wouldn't pick up.
The irony. Probably much wetter now than I ever would've been on bike.
Oh well. Walking home in the rain isn't bad. :) Just. I would be a lot happier if I could do it without the stupid heavy backpack weighing me down. And then I have to worry about the books inside. >>
And I need to shower and change out of my clothes because they're a dead giveaway. Can't let 'em know I walked home. 'coz, guess what, I'LL be the one getting lectured if they find out. >> Twisted logic. Either that, or dad'll blame himself and keep following me nattering and apologising until I want to scream at him SHUT UP, it doesn't matter, I don't care, can't you see I'm FINE, let me do my homework. Except if I did I would get lectured for speaking to adults that way.
As for actual school, 'twas okay. Okay. What a boring word.
Lots of people kept poking my hair. I found it funny. Tiff dropped her flute when she saw me. a bit overkill... flutes are expensive. >>; Ariel kept looking at me with this funny look, and kept starting to speak but then not. And Austin passed by and he stared, and then he doubled back and poked his head out from behind the wall like some anime character and stared more to make sure I'm me. And THEN when Ariel heard the word haircut she snapped like OMFG ADELA THAT'S IT I KNEW SOMETHING LOOKED A BIT QUEER ABOUT YOU TODAY... yadayada.
Everyone mentioned it, though. I can't even name them all. Even people like Brandon, and randomer people like Carol. >>;; It got a bit tiresome...
Eh, shower now. I'm glad - no track today. Not like he can make us run in that kind of rain...
1932: Aiyaaa just my luck. >> The A string on my cello broke. I guess 'sbeen a long time since I touched it...
1943: Yay go dad! He fixed it. ^^
2132: Crappu, I'm starting to feel awake again. It's... 5 AM in Taiwan now? Crap crap I don't want to stay up another night...
It's bright out... o.O
Feb. 9th, 2006 03:55 pmWow. Haven't been home this early in ages. oO;; Cut Track today. Still sore from skateboard hill, hungry, menstrual cramps, + anyways we searched around everywhere and could not, NOT find the other long distance people, Mr. Jordan or even Eddie/Daniel.
Fwee hw time yes~
Brigadoon people were all dressed up walking around campus today. Chris Chin wore PINK and black. and a skirt. oO;; Jeff wore a skirt too. but it was like. village clothing. so it didn't look too bad. Austin had a giant feather in his hat, reminiscent of the antennae things in Chinese opera, y'know, those big long things the generals always wear that jiggle around when they move their head?
That being said, work now. Piano's been srsly suffering in the wake of cello... and ugh I have a "Incident Chart" to make for English...
Fwee hw time yes~
Brigadoon people were all dressed up walking around campus today. Chris Chin wore PINK and black. and a skirt. oO;; Jeff wore a skirt too. but it was like. village clothing. so it didn't look too bad. Austin had a giant feather in his hat, reminiscent of the antennae things in Chinese opera, y'know, those big long things the generals always wear that jiggle around when they move their head?
That being said, work now. Piano's been srsly suffering in the wake of cello... and ugh I have a "Incident Chart" to make for English...
Skateboard hill is freakin' HUGE.
... we were supposed to do an EASY run today, dammit. >_< he left instructions...!
Gah. Cut orch today, 'coz I woke up and looked at the clock - 7:00 - and I had to get up because school was 7:50, yet when I thought about cooking breakfast and eating and changing and WAKING UP and making lunch and cleaning up my hw and stuff (didn't bother to last night) and finishing all by 7:30 since that's when I leave, I thought "ugh," and then I remembered that I'm going to have to see Francisco for an hour and a half, and I thought "UGH," so instead I got up, found my mom, and made her call in a sick leave.
Mom: What? Skip school? You're not sick!
Me: Just... skip a bit... in the morning...
Mom: That's not good.
Me: I'm tiiiiired~
Mom: What've you got first?
Me: Orchestraaa... w/Dr. F....
Mom: Oh well then, that's okay then. You can go back to sleep.
^^;;
Tiffany depresses me. She is a spoilsport. She refuses to play frisbee with me (or, she agreed, then backed out being a LAAAAMER which is worse). This makes me sad. There were a bunch of guys playing on the field, which made me sadder, because I wanted to join and she would. not. and I would've gone by myself except she quite literally. RAN AWAY. and I chased her on natural instinct to try and bring her back and yes, I am v. vexed. I need someone like Eliza here. 'coz SHE would play, unlike... well, I'll refrain from cursing Tiff to hell 'coz I have SOME respect for her, but srsly. it's irritating. and depressing. very much so.
.... rehearsal in 1.5 hrs. that's even more depressing. I kind of wish I don't have cello. At all. I mean, I know it helps me improve and screw the fact that I'm going to shame myself when she makes us play one by one because with the rest of her students I literally SUCK... but. all the stuff I'm doing, it's all good for me but I kind of wish there weren't so much. Like learning cello is good and kind of fun but just. I would rather I hadn't learned it and wtf why DID I ever learn it in the first place if Boitz is going to leave, I know doing lots of stuff is good but I don't like starting so many things and not being able to do my best in ALL of them because I just can't split myself that much, y'know. like. biting off more than I can chew.
Ick. I'll probably get over this phase once the concert's over. I think I'm getting erratic mood swings 'coz of my period. And it made today's run that much worse, with cramps and all. >_<
Edit: Oookay. My feet hurt. Walter is right. Waiting 'til Taiwan for real shoes is going to KILL me. ... but. if I had time before Taiwan. any time at all. you think I WOULDN'T GO BUY SOME?! T.T screw you, concert.
... WAH I WANT TO SEE BRIGADOON~!!!!! *angst wangst* T.T
... we were supposed to do an EASY run today, dammit. >_< he left instructions...!
Gah. Cut orch today, 'coz I woke up and looked at the clock - 7:00 - and I had to get up because school was 7:50, yet when I thought about cooking breakfast and eating and changing and WAKING UP and making lunch and cleaning up my hw and stuff (didn't bother to last night) and finishing all by 7:30 since that's when I leave, I thought "ugh," and then I remembered that I'm going to have to see Francisco for an hour and a half, and I thought "UGH," so instead I got up, found my mom, and made her call in a sick leave.
Mom: What? Skip school? You're not sick!
Me: Just... skip a bit... in the morning...
Mom: That's not good.
Me: I'm tiiiiired~
Mom: What've you got first?
Me: Orchestraaa... w/Dr. F....
Mom: Oh well then, that's okay then. You can go back to sleep.
^^;;
Tiffany depresses me. She is a spoilsport. She refuses to play frisbee with me (or, she agreed, then backed out being a LAAAAMER which is worse). This makes me sad. There were a bunch of guys playing on the field, which made me sadder, because I wanted to join and she would. not. and I would've gone by myself except she quite literally. RAN AWAY. and I chased her on natural instinct to try and bring her back and yes, I am v. vexed. I need someone like Eliza here. 'coz SHE would play, unlike... well, I'll refrain from cursing Tiff to hell 'coz I have SOME respect for her, but srsly. it's irritating. and depressing. very much so.
.... rehearsal in 1.5 hrs. that's even more depressing. I kind of wish I don't have cello. At all. I mean, I know it helps me improve and screw the fact that I'm going to shame myself when she makes us play one by one because with the rest of her students I literally SUCK... but. all the stuff I'm doing, it's all good for me but I kind of wish there weren't so much. Like learning cello is good and kind of fun but just. I would rather I hadn't learned it and wtf why DID I ever learn it in the first place if Boitz is going to leave, I know doing lots of stuff is good but I don't like starting so many things and not being able to do my best in ALL of them because I just can't split myself that much, y'know. like. biting off more than I can chew.
Ick. I'll probably get over this phase once the concert's over. I think I'm getting erratic mood swings 'coz of my period. And it made today's run that much worse, with cramps and all. >_<
Edit: Oookay. My feet hurt. Walter is right. Waiting 'til Taiwan for real shoes is going to KILL me. ... but. if I had time before Taiwan. any time at all. you think I WOULDN'T GO BUY SOME?! T.T screw you, concert.
... WAH I WANT TO SEE BRIGADOON~!!!!! *angst wangst* T.T
