sectionals

[chu_totoro]

much as I love our cello section, they bother me. a lot.

mostly because we could be so much more efficient but are not. it bothers me so much. really. it nags at the back of my brain like a canker sore: small, not v. noticeable, nothing major like a broken bone, no, but every time you touch it it hurts and it's... annoying.

I have a perfectionist tendency, I think. the way I nearly died reading BR ch32. oh god that was bad. the wedding vow, I fixed it in ch33 and somewhere else but I missed it in ch32, it's a WEDDING vow but translated LITERALLY so that it looked something like:

"whether sick, healthy, happy, sad, rich, poor... until the day we die."

a wedding vow! it SHOULD have been:

"through sickness and health, in joy and in sorrow, for richer and poorer... until death do us part."

and they edited it in. just like that. the former, not the latter. I translated that batch in '05, gave it to Earthy &drifted away from the translating world, didn't get back into it until a month ago and god was that bad. just about killed me reading it. I don't think I could've slept well knowing that. having the knowledge of its existence in my mind. /gags

(fyi I re-proofed it and they fixed it! just in case you care. you probably don't, but what really matters is I care, I care v. v. much however stupid it may be, and it makes me happy inside ♥♥♥)

just... if something's there that could be better, and I can see how to make it better, and I can make it better, if I don't it gnaws away at me like... a termite. a small, insistent termite. I have this perfectionist thing.

and it's little things, tiny things. phrasing, syntax, meaning, the subtle difference between a literal translation and a translation adapted to the translated language, English instead of Engrish. and orchestra, how to keep people's attention from wandering, how to put the ultimate snap of command in your voice, where and when to pause speech and use silence effectively to keep focus. all small things, tiny things, little tactics I noticed last year without noticing that I noticed, small strategies I can hardly put into words because it's almost instinctive. but I'm not Fish, I can't do those things for her, only she can do those things for her because when boitz assigns a job to her it's her job, her authority, and nobody should try and take it from her because you'll be undermining authority and you should never, ever do that, but just. it bothers me.

I'm stupid, I know. maybe I'll talk to Fish about it tmr.

in other news, today I had cello lesson in morning &thus was dropped off at school w/no car! buuut michael gave me a ride back. ♥ and got very stuck in our driveway, ahahah. /amused

Comments

[yokainomiko.livejournal.com]

Hey there~~~! I think it's fine to be a perfectionist in that sort of thing. And inefficiency is aggravating so there's no reason to feel about it. I don't know what BR is or who Fish is but um, good going?

The wedding vow thing seems really annoying to me too. It's like "Doesn't anyone even try to get things right?!"

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

OMG I KNOW I KNOW RIGHT? and it had my name behind it as translator!! I was like GUH I LET THEM DO THIS AND DIDN'T NOTICE FOR *THREE* YEARS?!

The first time I translated it through I didn't realize it was a wedding vow, then later there was a reference to "wedding" and I figured it out, so I went back and did it properly but I guess I just missed it in that chapter and reading it filled me with a burning shame. T__________T

At least it's fixed now.

(and lol, if anyone understands perfectionism it's you, m'dear. ♥)

[yokainomiko.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the 411 and just what exactly are you implying with the perfectionism comment? >.> *seriously doesn't get it*

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

not implying anything. it's just, knowing you, that's what I think. ♥

[yokainomiko.livejournal.com]

>.< That's sort of worse. "I'm not implying you're a perfectionist I'm blatantly saying that you act like one" >.>

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

or, "you have perfectionistic tendencies, like me! we are kindred spirits!" ;p

I'd say the same thing to Sara Gambord /shrug

I would have to Connie Shang once upon a time on account of her handwriting but I know her better now. ;p

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

oh FYI, BR is Busou Renkin, a series I am/was translating for Be With You Scans (not particularly fond of it but it's all right u___u). Fish = Felicia, cello principal for that piece. :x

[skypemaster007.livejournal.com]

You're second chair. I don't think anyone would mind you voicing this opinion of yours. There's nothing wrong with taking initiative. Frankly, I don't think our cello section will get very far this year without it >>;

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

Well it's not an opinion on any specific thing exactly, see, it's the way Fish runs things. She tends to talk a little too much in between, ah, the "rehearsing," for lack of a better way to put it, which causes people to lose focus and begin side conversations, etc etc. And just like, small things like that. That could make us a lot more efficient, you know?

Iunno. It's like, if I were running the sectional, that's what I would do. But since Fish is running the sectional, that's what she needs to do and I can't do it *for* her, I can't really put words in/take words out of her mouth, not unless I take over the entire sectional and I wouldn't want to do that, so like. Y'see what I mean?

[skypemaster007.livejournal.com]

Second chair has some authority as well. Whenever people start getting sidetracked, you can... idk, yell and scream at them? Maybe not, but my point here is that you two should lead the section together and compensate for each others' weaknesses. Get my drift? :x

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

I ALREADY do that, Sean. To the best of my abilities. but there's a limit to how much I can do without snatching over the reigns of her authority, and, respecting that, there's so much more she could do and there's just so much in general that could be done but isn't getting done, and that's what bothers me.