sectionals
Sep. 30th, 2008 09:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chu_totoromuch as I love our cello section, they bother me. a lot.
mostly because we could be so much more efficient but are not. it bothers me so much. really. it nags at the back of my brain like a canker sore: small, not v. noticeable, nothing major like a broken bone, no, but every time you touch it it hurts and it's... annoying.
I have a perfectionist tendency, I think. the way I nearly died reading BR ch32. oh god that was bad. the wedding vow, I fixed it in ch33 and somewhere else but I missed it in ch32, it's a WEDDING vow but translated LITERALLY so that it looked something like:
"whether sick, healthy, happy, sad, rich, poor... until the day we die."
a wedding vow! it SHOULD have been:
"through sickness and health, in joy and in sorrow, for richer and poorer... until death do us part."
and they edited it in. just like that. the former, not the latter. I translated that batch in '05, gave it to Earthy &drifted away from the translating world, didn't get back into it until a month ago and god was that bad. just about killed me reading it. I don't think I could've slept well knowing that. having the knowledge of its existence in my mind. /gags
(fyi I re-proofed it and they fixed it! just in case you care. you probably don't, but what really matters is I care, I care v. v. much however stupid it may be, and it makes me happy inside ♥♥♥)
just... if something's there that could be better, and I can see how to make it better, and I can make it better, if I don't it gnaws away at me like... a termite. a small, insistent termite. I have this perfectionist thing.
and it's little things, tiny things. phrasing, syntax, meaning, the subtle difference between a literal translation and a translation adapted to the translated language, English instead of Engrish. and orchestra, how to keep people's attention from wandering, how to put the ultimate snap of command in your voice, where and when to pause speech and use silence effectively to keep focus. all small things, tiny things, little tactics I noticed last year without noticing that I noticed, small strategies I can hardly put into words because it's almost instinctive. but I'm not Fish, I can't do those things for her, only she can do those things for her because when boitz assigns a job to her it's her job, her authority, and nobody should try and take it from her because you'll be undermining authority and you should never, ever do that, but just. it bothers me.
I'm stupid, I know. maybe I'll talk to Fish about it tmr.
in other news, today I had cello lesson in morning &thus was dropped off at school w/no car! buuut michael gave me a ride back. ♥ and got very stuck in our driveway, ahahah. /amused
mostly because we could be so much more efficient but are not. it bothers me so much. really. it nags at the back of my brain like a canker sore: small, not v. noticeable, nothing major like a broken bone, no, but every time you touch it it hurts and it's... annoying.
I have a perfectionist tendency, I think. the way I nearly died reading BR ch32. oh god that was bad. the wedding vow, I fixed it in ch33 and somewhere else but I missed it in ch32, it's a WEDDING vow but translated LITERALLY so that it looked something like:
"whether sick, healthy, happy, sad, rich, poor... until the day we die."
a wedding vow! it SHOULD have been:
"through sickness and health, in joy and in sorrow, for richer and poorer... until death do us part."
and they edited it in. just like that. the former, not the latter. I translated that batch in '05, gave it to Earthy &drifted away from the translating world, didn't get back into it until a month ago and god was that bad. just about killed me reading it. I don't think I could've slept well knowing that. having the knowledge of its existence in my mind. /gags
(fyi I re-proofed it and they fixed it! just in case you care. you probably don't, but what really matters is I care, I care v. v. much however stupid it may be, and it makes me happy inside ♥♥♥)
just... if something's there that could be better, and I can see how to make it better, and I can make it better, if I don't it gnaws away at me like... a termite. a small, insistent termite. I have this perfectionist thing.
and it's little things, tiny things. phrasing, syntax, meaning, the subtle difference between a literal translation and a translation adapted to the translated language, English instead of Engrish. and orchestra, how to keep people's attention from wandering, how to put the ultimate snap of command in your voice, where and when to pause speech and use silence effectively to keep focus. all small things, tiny things, little tactics I noticed last year without noticing that I noticed, small strategies I can hardly put into words because it's almost instinctive. but I'm not Fish, I can't do those things for her, only she can do those things for her because when boitz assigns a job to her it's her job, her authority, and nobody should try and take it from her because you'll be undermining authority and you should never, ever do that, but just. it bothers me.
I'm stupid, I know. maybe I'll talk to Fish about it tmr.
in other news, today I had cello lesson in morning &thus was dropped off at school w/no car! buuut michael gave me a ride back. ♥ and got very stuck in our driveway, ahahah. /amused
