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i know part of this is just because i haven't gotten enough sleep and don't have enough energy, but it's frustrating
missed out on movement showcase yesterday because i just felt too tired and sapped to go (plus, i'm pretty sure the tickets were sold out :/)
also missed tammy's concert because i didn't put it in my calendar properly and thought it was next week!!
sometimes berkeley just feels so big and overwhelming. it takes so much effort to see people, to manage all your connections, and it's not as easy as just go to this or that if a friend (or an acquaintance who might become your friend) is in it because we are HUGE and there are literally hundreds of events going on every week and even if you're only privy to 20 or so of them there is nooooo wayyyy you can go to all of them without completely collapsing. and then it comes down to a matter of choice, which event over the other, which group over the other, which friend over the other, and you can't just spread yourself around because again everything is soooo biiiig that if you do you'll end up only seeing one group once every two months or once a month and you just get spread so thin.
i guess i'm just a possibilities person, and berkeley is particularly frustrating for me because every one choice means you miss out on 3-4 others. maybe it'd be better if i had gone to a smaller school, with less options available.
ughhhh well this shitty feeling will probably pass once i sleep enough and get rid of this abominable headache x______x
missed out on movement showcase yesterday because i just felt too tired and sapped to go (plus, i'm pretty sure the tickets were sold out :/)
also missed tammy's concert because i didn't put it in my calendar properly and thought it was next week!!
sometimes berkeley just feels so big and overwhelming. it takes so much effort to see people, to manage all your connections, and it's not as easy as just go to this or that if a friend (or an acquaintance who might become your friend) is in it because we are HUGE and there are literally hundreds of events going on every week and even if you're only privy to 20 or so of them there is nooooo wayyyy you can go to all of them without completely collapsing. and then it comes down to a matter of choice, which event over the other, which group over the other, which friend over the other, and you can't just spread yourself around because again everything is soooo biiiig that if you do you'll end up only seeing one group once every two months or once a month and you just get spread so thin.
i guess i'm just a possibilities person, and berkeley is particularly frustrating for me because every one choice means you miss out on 3-4 others. maybe it'd be better if i had gone to a smaller school, with less options available.
ughhhh well this shitty feeling will probably pass once i sleep enough and get rid of this abominable headache x______x
