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Feb. 23rd, 2013 02:56 amAND TAKIS
it's stuck in my headdddddd
met a badass guy at cfx social who had absolute pitch and could replay music instantaneously by ear. soo jealous haha. but in a good way. must get my piano tuned so i can work on my ear!!
it's funny - i had a study date with some friends from high school today and it reminded me of why i always felt out of place at high school. there isn't anything wrong with them and there isn't anything wrong with me, but we've had such a different experience of life up until this point that when i'm with them, i feel... off, somehow.
but maybe that's just my ego speaking.
i think i was a very elitist person all through high school. my parents did such a thorough job of instilling "confidence" into me that i always felt that i was better than others in some way or the other. i knew more, or what i knew was more interesting, or what i knew was more important -
well of course it's more interesting to me they're my interests, duh.
i want to work on being more humble and a better listener. i think other people are much more fascinating than i ever gave them credit for, and i just have to take the time to get to know them. &i also want to stop the habit of giving people advice where it's uncalled for.
i want to thank my ex boyfriend whom i still love very much (like a FRIEND - i don't plan to sleep with him or do anything weird) for (indirectly) helping me to realize this. i don't talk to him much anymore but that's partly because he speaks to me so fondly it's kinda weird. and he always had those strange ideas about polyamory. but i mean, i hated it when he was weirdly affectionate with his friends/ex girlfriends and i don't really like being on the receiving end of it either - i guess i'm just not cut out to be a hippie. also, when he does that it feels like we're dating, and i really don't feel like relating to him on that level anymore.
ANYWAY
i have no underwear left T___T i've even gone through all the nice lingerie and now i'm literally on the LAST one DDD:
LAUNDRY FIRST THING TMR MORNING
bedtimeee
it's stuck in my headdddddd
met a badass guy at cfx social who had absolute pitch and could replay music instantaneously by ear. soo jealous haha. but in a good way. must get my piano tuned so i can work on my ear!!
it's funny - i had a study date with some friends from high school today and it reminded me of why i always felt out of place at high school. there isn't anything wrong with them and there isn't anything wrong with me, but we've had such a different experience of life up until this point that when i'm with them, i feel... off, somehow.
but maybe that's just my ego speaking.
i think i was a very elitist person all through high school. my parents did such a thorough job of instilling "confidence" into me that i always felt that i was better than others in some way or the other. i knew more, or what i knew was more interesting, or what i knew was more important -
well of course it's more interesting to me they're my interests, duh.
i want to work on being more humble and a better listener. i think other people are much more fascinating than i ever gave them credit for, and i just have to take the time to get to know them. &i also want to stop the habit of giving people advice where it's uncalled for.
i want to thank my ex boyfriend whom i still love very much (like a FRIEND - i don't plan to sleep with him or do anything weird) for (indirectly) helping me to realize this. i don't talk to him much anymore but that's partly because he speaks to me so fondly it's kinda weird. and he always had those strange ideas about polyamory. but i mean, i hated it when he was weirdly affectionate with his friends/ex girlfriends and i don't really like being on the receiving end of it either - i guess i'm just not cut out to be a hippie. also, when he does that it feels like we're dating, and i really don't feel like relating to him on that level anymore.
ANYWAY
i have no underwear left T___T i've even gone through all the nice lingerie and now i'm literally on the LAST one DDD:
LAUNDRY FIRST THING TMR MORNING
bedtimeee
