Crap, I've got cello

This morning I woke up early again, and was planning to work on my super-long entry #2, except that I decided to check LJ first. And, upon seeing smushedness's newest entry, went ahead and tried out FFR.

I really do suck at it. =X But I beat Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata! Ahahaha... probably because I know the song so well. Also beat a few other "For Beginner"s, "Very Easy"s, and I think maybe an "Easy" or two. Attempted some "Standards" and horribly failed at most of them. Can't figure out how to get my fingers around the keyboard >> And when I use both hands, they clash with each other. Ahaha~ To my surprise, I made it more than 2/3rds of the way through "136.6"... but died right before the end.

Heh. When I think about it, technically this might be harder than DDR because your hands trip over each other on the tiny keyboard. _ _;; Whatever. Now for meme-ism...

Stolen from cougarfang:

1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.

Denise hasn't actually replied to me yet, being on the wrong side of the planet.... but I'm sure she will. And it looks challenging. "Something that only makes sense to you and me" can prove difficult... 7 looks hard as well. Depending on the person.

I really do need to work on my super-long post before I forget everything that's happened (I swear next time I go to a camp like this I will bring a journal) but Adam has just come to take over my room (somehow it became his drawing room while I was gone and he has everything all set up in a little corner to draw and he gets paid $25 an hour for drawing so I can't exactly stop him) so I think I'll leave now.

....and I have a cello lesson today. Ergh. RAWR.

Birthday... cello...

It's my mom's birthday today. And I totally forgot. She's not acting like it's her birthday, but still....

( Rant )

Maybe I'll go find some temporary relief in FFR... and work on my LJ entry and forget about all of this for a while. The logical side of my brain still functions somewhat, and I have a feeling that PMS might be affecting my judgement, and lots of other things, besides.

This makes me miss CTY. I didn't have to worry about anything like this in CTY. It was like another life. Somewhere where you wipe the slate clean and start over. A fleeting dream...

...when the dream ends, you might cling to remnants..... leftover pieces... but it's never the same again...

Edit: Ah, what was that? Ha, look at all the crap that I wrote. I have an urge to delete this post, because I don't want to think about what others will think when they read it, but I won't because then I'll feel like I have something to hide >>

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Nearly had a row with my mom over the cello thing. But we were both sensible people so we skipped over the shouting part (although we came rather close to it) and made a compromise. She wants me to at least try out orchestra, and I can see the sense in that, and we're both rather sensible, but it made me cry anyways.

The whole negotiation was okay, but at the end she started talking about how I was worse after I came back from CTY and maybe she should give me less freedom from now on because it's obviously affected my instruments. Which made me pissed, but I restrained myself.

It's her BIRTHDAY, dammit. And then I was overwhelmed by guilt pressure... At least she didn't see my crying on her birthday. And I can pretty much exercise control over it. But still, I cry all too much. Must be PMSing. I remember a period of time when I would never cry. Not for anything in the world. Not even when no one's around. Oh well. Crying's not a bad thing, necessarily. Anyways, I should go celebrate now. I hope the surprise party will cheer her up. And then I can make up with her. Hopefully.