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[chu_totoro]

Nearly had a row with my mom over the cello thing. But we were both sensible people so we skipped over the shouting part (although we came rather close to it) and made a compromise. She wants me to at least try out orchestra, and I can see the sense in that, and we're both rather sensible, but it made me cry anyways.

The whole negotiation was okay, but at the end she started talking about how I was worse after I came back from CTY and maybe she should give me less freedom from now on because it's obviously affected my instruments. Which made me pissed, but I restrained myself.

It's her BIRTHDAY, dammit. And then I was overwhelmed by guilt pressure... At least she didn't see my crying on her birthday. And I can pretty much exercise control over it. But still, I cry all too much. Must be PMSing. I remember a period of time when I would never cry. Not for anything in the world. Not even when no one's around. Oh well. Crying's not a bad thing, necessarily. Anyways, I should go celebrate now. I hope the surprise party will cheer her up. And then I can make up with her. Hopefully.

Comments

[maeglin-arandur.livejournal.com]

Mm. that's sad.

And crying is good for you. Never crying is dull and boring.

Seriously. No instruments for three weeks, and she expects for your skills to stay up? /sigh. Even if one does music practice all three weeks, you can't possibly keep in shape. Four pianos for about 20 people...

Well. Have fun at the party, good luck with... whatever. life.

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

M'well, since we're talking about the cello here, that would be even more impossible because I didn't bring it. I did do music practice for a weekly once... the entire week added together... I think I managed to get about an hour on the piano. *nod*

And she didn't... that was her point. 3 week breaks dampen your skills... so maybe I should.... Iono what she thinks, really.... just stay home all summer next year? I recall her complaining about that one summer when I literally stayed home and did absolutely nothing whatsoever. And she used it as an excuse to force me to go to Taiwan and CTY (I really didn't want to take the SATs at the time).... haha. I should remind her. But she's busy enough, as it is. And since that part of the argument is mostly irrelevant, I'll drop it and not annoy her.

[maeglin-arandur.livejournal.com]

Mm. Toby had a v. smexy portable cello. It was really cool. oO and it was quiet.

[cougarfang.livejournal.com]

"Less freedom", the perennial favorite of Asian parents. And guilt-tripping. Monkeybutts. The only advice I can offer is grit your teeth and bear it, 'cause it never goes away until you move out. And sometimes not even then.
Just keep in mind, what they want doesn't necessarily have to be what you want. Keep independent, even if it's only in your head.

[asnstalkerchick.livejournal.com]

everything is in my head, the world is in my head and they are just trying divine intervention on my behalf, hoping that i will go back to their parenting fantasy land

[asnstalkerchick.livejournal.com]

just think, my parents and i fight the way you and your mother did, except that we do it every. single. saturday. its like they dont know my and then suddenly they see me on saturday, stay mad until sunday evening, and then go off to work on monday, coming back while i am upstairs avoiding them

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

Hm. But then it becomes routine, almost. I'd say it's scarier to have a fight with a parent that usually doesn't mind these things, because then the fight seems a lot more serious.

But I feel bad for you. ;_; -patpat- Routine fights can't be good either...

[asnstalkerchick.livejournal.com]

welp, theyre...routine
but we yell about different stuff