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Hah... I love the cute little mood pictures... :) Stressed... probably more like tired or exhausted. Whatever. It's just a representation of the mood that's not real anyways. Just got back from a piano lesson. And it wasn't the best of lessons, either. Haven't practiced nearly enough. I have practiced, but I wasn't concentrating. And when you do that, your practicing is sloppy. And your finger remembers the sloppiness. And it brings it to class. But the CM is more important. CMs (Certificate of Merit) are coming up in two weeks. I need to concentrate more during practices. Been slacking off again. Today's bad lesson might also be due to the fact that I didn't sleep enough today - stayed up reading Ender's Shadow.
I need to concentrate more doing EVERYTHING. Instead of procrastinating here typing on to the livejournal listening to music. Although I must admit this is relaxing... of course my dear father must ruin it by knocking on the door and loudly (perhaps rudely) telling me to get on with it and come to dinner already. How wonderful. No really... I honestly need to concentrate. Cello deadline is coming up next month, although I'm not much worried about that... The stupid thing is schoolwork, I guess. Slacking there too. Not being "precise." Forgetting stuff and all. I was having a rather good day in the morning when Ms. Kadam decided to review the final that we took at least a month ago (she never managed to get to it, though she always meant to). So there goes my good spirits when I look down at the 79.4. o.1 points to a B-. It may not make that much difference, but B- sounds so much better than C+. And she HAD to remind us. That was possibly the worst grade I ever got in math. Oh well.
My fricking Japanese presentation also happens to be on Monday. Leaves me lots of time to practice, no? Maybe I mentioned it already, but when we chose days (slips of paper), I had last choice. So naturally I got Monday. Greeeeat. Now all I have to do is print out some pictures of Miyazaki and memorize my 3-page long essay. Yeaaah... Maybe I should just work a bit harder this month and get things over with. It's not like I CAN'T balance everything. I can. I just don't want to. Sometimes after you've already practiced and you're tired, wouldn't you rather sit in your room and read, or type in your livejournal, or listen to music, rather than go out for another hour of tiring practice of a different instrument? Or homework...
So I guess I shouldn't have written all this. It's "wasting" time. But it makes me feel better. However, the thought that I'll probably be questioned about what the hell I was doing in my room for so long not coming to dinner with my door CLOSED (parents are just so suspicious) doesn't quite cheer me up as well. Oh well. I can tell them I was reading Shadow Puppets, the sequel to Ender's Shadow. It's really not that great. Ender's Shadow was pretty good, and Card did a rather good job of stretching characters originally obviously not intended for such major roles to have... major roles. Yeah. I always felt like Speaker of the Dead, Xenocide... were a different person. Not the Ender I knew in Ender's Game. I got to see him again in Ender's Shadow, so now I'm happy. Yaaayy... okay, must eat now....
I need to concentrate more doing EVERYTHING. Instead of procrastinating here typing on to the livejournal listening to music. Although I must admit this is relaxing... of course my dear father must ruin it by knocking on the door and loudly (perhaps rudely) telling me to get on with it and come to dinner already. How wonderful. No really... I honestly need to concentrate. Cello deadline is coming up next month, although I'm not much worried about that... The stupid thing is schoolwork, I guess. Slacking there too. Not being "precise." Forgetting stuff and all. I was having a rather good day in the morning when Ms. Kadam decided to review the final that we took at least a month ago (she never managed to get to it, though she always meant to). So there goes my good spirits when I look down at the 79.4. o.1 points to a B-. It may not make that much difference, but B- sounds so much better than C+. And she HAD to remind us. That was possibly the worst grade I ever got in math. Oh well.
My fricking Japanese presentation also happens to be on Monday. Leaves me lots of time to practice, no? Maybe I mentioned it already, but when we chose days (slips of paper), I had last choice. So naturally I got Monday. Greeeeat. Now all I have to do is print out some pictures of Miyazaki and memorize my 3-page long essay. Yeaaah... Maybe I should just work a bit harder this month and get things over with. It's not like I CAN'T balance everything. I can. I just don't want to. Sometimes after you've already practiced and you're tired, wouldn't you rather sit in your room and read, or type in your livejournal, or listen to music, rather than go out for another hour of tiring practice of a different instrument? Or homework...
So I guess I shouldn't have written all this. It's "wasting" time. But it makes me feel better. However, the thought that I'll probably be questioned about what the hell I was doing in my room for so long not coming to dinner with my door CLOSED (parents are just so suspicious) doesn't quite cheer me up as well. Oh well. I can tell them I was reading Shadow Puppets, the sequel to Ender's Shadow. It's really not that great. Ender's Shadow was pretty good, and Card did a rather good job of stretching characters originally obviously not intended for such major roles to have... major roles. Yeah. I always felt like Speaker of the Dead, Xenocide... were a different person. Not the Ender I knew in Ender's Game. I got to see him again in Ender's Shadow, so now I'm happy. Yaaayy... okay, must eat now....
