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[chu_totoro]

what the hell

I really need to get a grip on life.

I keep meaning to do stuff. I tell myself in my head over and over again that I'll do them. For example, I'll sit on my chair, and think, I should clean my room. Then I'll look at my room, and at the papers on the floor, and think about how to organize them, and at the books strewn everywhere, and think about where they go on the bookshelf, and at my backpack, and think about all the homework I should do, and tell myself in my head that I'll do it as soon as I get up, just a minute...

Until I have to go to class. Or my dad calls me to lunch. And I leave thinking, well, I'll do it when I get back, and then I never do.

ajfd;lkjasgkjbhajflkas;fjasl;fa can I just screw school, screw responsibility, go to Barnes and Nobles and buy those new books I want to read and come back and lie down in that comfy patch of sun in my room and just READ? Just for say, a day? I mean, I don't really care about all the achievements of Woodrow Wilson, no matter how great they were kthxBYE.

edit: At Denise's suggestion...

immediate/important

--physics problems
--finish APUSH outline
--redo pink essay sheet
--practice cello
   -kummer/Toccata for tmr
   -audition music just in case
--marathons for poetry
--put orch music in a binder
--write a pantoum
--Storyteller publishing
--packet highlighting

longer term

--clean room
--read O! Pioneers
--practice piano
--practice cello
    -All-state music
--Chinese homework
--multivariate stuff
--organize poetry binder(s)
--organize books
--dishes

stuff I'd like to do in my free time

--go visit B&N's
--watch House with parents :D

OK... I'll add on if I remember anything that I forgot. Aside from that, guess I should get started on everything. x_____X

Comments

[cougarfang.livejournal.com]

Try writing lists? It usually seems like zomg so much shit to do and no idea where to start so screw this, I won't start anything... but if you write it down in a list it's not so overwhelming and you see that this should be done NOW while that can be done later or not at all, and as you do things you can cross them out and forget about them because they're DONE. XD;;

[chu-totoro.livejournal.com]

mmmm. will try.

funny icon, by the way. :D