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happyhappy vdayyy~!!
i've been feeling a bit out of whack, a little lonely, and luckily since i've listened to earl so much that his words still echo through my mind, threading along with him trace memories of tony robbins yelling at me and scott h young reasoning with me as i laboriously drew a decidedly asymmetric octagon with which to represent my life, it occurred to me that i am failing to balance the different aspects of my life.
(i need to start listening to earl more again also he's starting to fade)
first lemme figure out what my axes are. i think it's smth like
school
exercise
social
... i can't actually think of more than that right now but i've been so swamped with academia and club stuff that i haven't really done anything in the social dept. i mean i've gone to club things and stuff but what i really like to do is hang out one on one or in small groups with friends, not necessarily doing club-necessitated things.
one thing i learned from sim city was also not to overcompensate (LOL). i used to always overcompensate when i was feeling lonely or starved for friendship by messaging a whole ton of people at once (not all of whom respond immediately) or going to find a bunch of people at once which always resulted in a flood of responses the next day (by which time i wasn't lonely anymore) or a bunch of promises to hang out which were subsequently broken (because i wasn't lonely anymore :<). and uh. this relates to sim city because i did the same thing whenever there was a projected deficit for a certain kind of area (residential, industrial, etc), and a few months later i would have a huge surplus of that area and deficits in all the others-_____-;;
so tmr when i have some time i'm going to start easing social stuff back into my next week! and maybe cut down on academia where i can. i have learned that the best policy is to endure the lack for now and plan to have it back (in reasonable moderation) in the future, and just give up on instant gratification for the moment.
oh some other categories that just occurred to me:
cleanliness
appearance/maintenance? (of household objects too, not just clothes)
err wealth/job. but i'm good in that dept i think.
ok gonna sneakily put my ipod on the table so i listen to earl tmr and go to bed <3
i've been feeling a bit out of whack, a little lonely, and luckily since i've listened to earl so much that his words still echo through my mind, threading along with him trace memories of tony robbins yelling at me and scott h young reasoning with me as i laboriously drew a decidedly asymmetric octagon with which to represent my life, it occurred to me that i am failing to balance the different aspects of my life.
(i need to start listening to earl more again also he's starting to fade)
first lemme figure out what my axes are. i think it's smth like
school
exercise
social
... i can't actually think of more than that right now but i've been so swamped with academia and club stuff that i haven't really done anything in the social dept. i mean i've gone to club things and stuff but what i really like to do is hang out one on one or in small groups with friends, not necessarily doing club-necessitated things.
one thing i learned from sim city was also not to overcompensate (LOL). i used to always overcompensate when i was feeling lonely or starved for friendship by messaging a whole ton of people at once (not all of whom respond immediately) or going to find a bunch of people at once which always resulted in a flood of responses the next day (by which time i wasn't lonely anymore) or a bunch of promises to hang out which were subsequently broken (because i wasn't lonely anymore :<). and uh. this relates to sim city because i did the same thing whenever there was a projected deficit for a certain kind of area (residential, industrial, etc), and a few months later i would have a huge surplus of that area and deficits in all the others-_____-;;
so tmr when i have some time i'm going to start easing social stuff back into my next week! and maybe cut down on academia where i can. i have learned that the best policy is to endure the lack for now and plan to have it back (in reasonable moderation) in the future, and just give up on instant gratification for the moment.
oh some other categories that just occurred to me:
cleanliness
appearance/maintenance? (of household objects too, not just clothes)
err wealth/job. but i'm good in that dept i think.
ok gonna sneakily put my ipod on the table so i listen to earl tmr and go to bed <3
