this lit autobio

is really fun to write

i'm so sleepy

it's so good so good so good when

you enter the zone

and the words just rise up in your mind

i'm not at that crazy state of ecstasy yet where you don't have to do anything and everything just magically flows out of your fingers and you just have to be a fast enough typist to keep up and there's so much adrenaline going you feel like you're flying and at the top of the world

it's more like. vaguely, as i'm rereading and thinking, the next sentence appears in my mind, and if i keep thinking and go too far, on to the next sentence after that and the next and the next

i forgot the original next sentence and hate myself when i come back to what's currently written

but as long as i go slow

it's there

and the language isn't refined

but this is sooo much nicer than two days ago when i felt like i was pulling teeth! or squeezing juice out of an orange peel

so sleepy sleepy

also all this is making me miss avidgamers

sigh good times

我愛

我愛我愛我愛我愛你

happy happy valley

white people give the best tips<3