ugh

[chu_totoro]

my eyes are all puffy from crying last night. nooooooo.

had a dream about jordan. after i woke up and cried and went back to sleep, i had a dream in which i was lying on my bed in my parent's house playing a very warped version of league and katie and my brother came home and i gave katie a big hug and she sat down on the edge of the bed and rubbed my back a little as she leaned over to look at the screen going like "what's this?" (and they both made fun of me for playing computer games QQ) and i felt exponentially better and less depressed and then i asked them about the wedding and my brother was like oh god yeah planning weddings is tough SIGH

and then i woke up and remembered that katie is marrying victor and my brother is dead

weird illusory moments. i like it when i dream about him though. i miss him too. :(