day b1

[chu_totoro]

go adela go

gratitude
i'm grateful to be alive
i'm grateful that i'm not cramping too much this week
i'm grateful that the government today is fair and not massacre-ing people just to seize power
i'm grateful that i've been able to sleep well the past few days
i'm grateful that the snakes are well fed
i'm grateful that my parents still feel healthy enough to go on trips

admiration
i have been admired for being sensitive (could be good could be bad??)
i have been admired for typing quickly
i have been admired for enjoying programming

forgiveness
i forgive myself for crying a lot and feeling sad (omg that movie was soooo depressinggg)
i forgive myself for feeling lonely and sad sometimes
i forgive myself for wistful thinking and not being able to let go. i think that's something i really have to learn how to do. being obsessively persistent is the root of a lot of stuff i've achieved up til now but it's also the root of a lot of my problems (like procrastination and/or dropping everything for the sake of solving one little thing which really isn't that important in the big picture) and i think i need to learn to distinguish what to let go of and what to persist with. go me!