With some people I have real conversations. ... well, really, they're all real conversations to some extent. Sometimes they just seem shallow, but the thing is, what would be a meaningful conversation. Philosophy? When we were in middle school it's not like we sat around and discussed philosophy. =.=; Maybe the feeling comes more from the fact that once we leave school for college, these "friends" will become "acquaintances" and, again, names, and if we ever meet again we'll chat with each other and update bits of life and name some names and go off our own separate ways and never think of each other again until we happen by each other again, and the connection's shallower, but that, in turn, is only because I have a broader spectrum of connections than I used to, and that, in turn, is probably a part of growing up. So be it.

I don't want to go back, I want to go on. I think the main issue with that is that the people I befriend around here are all too conservative and not much fun. I love them, I mean, but they're not the type that'd be omgsh yeahyeah let's do it! the time I realized those holes in the pillar/wall-ish thing were FOOTholds to let you climb UP, they're all the type of people who're afraid of getting in trouble and would hang back, and it's really not much fun if you do things like that on your own, y'know. My sister would go with me. :P yayay sibling love~

I'm not waiting for an accomplice. The point is, if you've ever done these things alone, it's not fun. It's not an accomplice, it's the fact that it's a 2+ player game and you can't go with one person. There needs to be someone to share the fun with, otherwise the most fun you can get out of it is the same fun you get out of playing solitaire, do you read? 'snot the same.

...hahah irony. I was going to say I'm not misunderstood, at least I don't feel misunderstood by the people around me, but that indicates you misunderstood that, right, so I'm still misunderstood? lol.

If life's a game, dying =/= losing, since it's set into the rules from the very beginning. Rather death sets a time limit on the game, and I'd say the purpose of the game is to find as much happiness as possible within the time limit you're allotted, and if possible at times even extend your time limit a little bit. :P

Everyone's somewhat of a hypocrite. The idea of hypocrisy... Iono. The thing is, when people are inconsistent, when I am at least, a lot of the times I meant what I said before, but something changed between then and now and I don't mean it anymore. So is that really hypocrisy? You know all those people who get dumped, they get pissed off and they call the other person a hypocrite, it was all lies, nothing was true they're just a liar and a fake, I always feel like it wasn't necessarily all lies, they meant it back then and now they just don't anymore, yeah? 'course, all this is coming from people in an emotionally unstable state so it really shouldn't be judged anyway... :P