at a loss for words

no more DDG. ever.

but the ending made me so happy...




/bittersweet

guilttrip death

god I can't go to sleep like this.

so today was unproductive extraordinaire:

--SATs in the morning
--cello lesson (no practise beforehand due to SATs)
--walked dog
--read the final ch to DDG (it's over. /SOB)
--chatted w/family friends who came over
--watched Dr. House w/parents
--fixed all broken links in BWYS's translation page &updated Busou Renkin translations

NOTE: no cello practise or piano practise whatsoever.

now I'm guilttripping so hard I could die. it's not even like overwhelming smothering w/e, just this vague sense of unease that keeps me up, and up, and up, keeps me from going to bed, keeps me awake and unsettled and now that it's five minutes 'til the morrow I've finally fully come into the reluctant realization that unless I go practise cello and practise piano and practise my head off (wtf I have an audition tmr for god's sake) I will not be able to sleep.

sigh.

procrastinator to the core.

this is going to kill all my earlybird habits too. what a shame.