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Sep. 9th, 2006 08:05 amGood lord.
I keep having these absolutely mundane, everyday dreams that are undeniably horrible in a subtle way; they're not horrible horrible, or terror-strikingly horrible, but they are still horrible and I don't know it until I wake up, and then I realize I really truly believed in the dream and thought it was my true life until the moment of awakening, and then it's like a great weight is lifted up off my chest and I want to cry and. it's horrible. T__T
I feel like if I just don't wake up every day either with alarm or that jump-start awakening where you're like OMG I'M LATE and am startled awake and forced into reality, it wouldn't happen. Which is completely illogical, but I just have that feeling anyway. boo.
I keep having these absolutely mundane, everyday dreams that are undeniably horrible in a subtle way; they're not horrible horrible, or terror-strikingly horrible, but they are still horrible and I don't know it until I wake up, and then I realize I really truly believed in the dream and thought it was my true life until the moment of awakening, and then it's like a great weight is lifted up off my chest and I want to cry and. it's horrible. T__T
I feel like if I just don't wake up every day either with alarm or that jump-start awakening where you're like OMG I'M LATE and am startled awake and forced into reality, it wouldn't happen. Which is completely illogical, but I just have that feeling anyway. boo.