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Mar. 11th, 2005 07:33 pm...It seems like things that I predict, and actually, truly, completely, totally believe in until I'm frustrated and in a bad mood, is... the opposite. I was convinced I'd have a terrible lesson today. Utterly convinced. No doubt about it. I could SEE what would happen.
Aaaand.. of course it doesn't happen. I actually had a good lesson today. It doesn't make sense. I believed COMPLETELY that my Shostakovich was terrible. It WAS terrible. My teacher was horrified last lesson. But she was pleased this lesson. And I miraculously managed to play well. I could tell. It didn't sound bad like it normally does. And the Schumann, which was good, turned out not to be so good in class. Aaaagh... topsy turvy... so maybe my cello class will turn out good too? But now that I have a hope that it'll be good, and I don't totally believe it'll be terrible, maybe it will be bad. Just to spite me.
( A LOT (I MEAN IT) of mindless rambling about whatever comes into my mind )
I'm pretty sure I just cut another record for rambling. That was what, 30 minutes wasted on a computer? I wouldn't call it wasted... now that I've stuck everything I thought onto paper, I feel kind of empty. Emptied out. Blank. How the heck did I get from piano to frisbee? I can't remember. But it doesn't matter. Time to rejoin reality and practice cello to prevent a TOTALLY terrible lesson..... x.X Wow. I wrote more than I thought.
On second thought. I don't WANT to practice. Maybe I'll just check back on my old neopets account and procrastinate for a while. The class isn't until 9 PM, after all... m....
Aaaand.. of course it doesn't happen. I actually had a good lesson today. It doesn't make sense. I believed COMPLETELY that my Shostakovich was terrible. It WAS terrible. My teacher was horrified last lesson. But she was pleased this lesson. And I miraculously managed to play well. I could tell. It didn't sound bad like it normally does. And the Schumann, which was good, turned out not to be so good in class. Aaaagh... topsy turvy... so maybe my cello class will turn out good too? But now that I have a hope that it'll be good, and I don't totally believe it'll be terrible, maybe it will be bad. Just to spite me.
( A LOT (I MEAN IT) of mindless rambling about whatever comes into my mind )
I'm pretty sure I just cut another record for rambling. That was what, 30 minutes wasted on a computer? I wouldn't call it wasted... now that I've stuck everything I thought onto paper, I feel kind of empty. Emptied out. Blank. How the heck did I get from piano to frisbee? I can't remember. But it doesn't matter. Time to rejoin reality and practice cello to prevent a TOTALLY terrible lesson..... x.X Wow. I wrote more than I thought.
On second thought. I don't WANT to practice. Maybe I'll just check back on my old neopets account and procrastinate for a while. The class isn't until 9 PM, after all... m....
