why

Jun. 27th, 2009 07:02 pm
chu_totoro: (Loveless-- !?)
is it so hot!?

so I really want to go to Italy now

because

it's so cheap!

the most expensive part is probably travel costs but guess what...

I'M ALREADY IN EUROPE BY THEN

i.e. I can probably just pay some sort of fee to delay my return flight time by a week or two

i.e. no extra plane flight costs (well except maybe from Germany to Italy but compared to US to Italy...)

also, if Mr & Mrs Kim agree to go that means

it'll be legit!

(withOUT the dragonlady)

because Mrs Kim will not settle for anything less than the best for her students :)

the only thing is...

then I won't be back 'til early August

so I'll have lost half a month

and Yulya might not be very happy.

but I'll still be here in August and September!

is that enough time to make a recording?

who knows.

but of course if I do go to Italy I'll do piano too

that should console her.

come to think of it, it might even HELP my recording.

oh man I better finish guzheng recordings soon

and start practising that guqin

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh whatever

so hot...

edit: so I was writing about my experiences in new york. & it was basically a long Litany of Injustices Done. but I got tired of thinking such negative thoughts halfway through and stopped.

I might post up a less long, summarized version sometime. I have not the energy to continue in the vein I started. this heat is robbing me of my ability to think...
chu_totoro: (random-- abracadabra)
Oh, fuck you, Kucer.

I think this is taking things a little too far.

I was originally planning to find some time to apologise, but I don't feel like it anymore.

Unless my dear mother forces me to, in which case doubly fuck you because I hate giving apologies I don't mean.

Thirty minutes in and it's another shitty day. Wonderful.

edit: So I found out that forwarding the letter was part of school procedure and not from Kucer personally, so I am no longer angry at him, just reasonably annoyed by the school. but I must say that still made for a pretty crappy morning.

Otherwise school today was OK.

I kind of miss the days when I wasn't into music. You know, go to school, do whatever, have a blast running around and playing silly games on the computer, go home and practice some piano, that's that. And so much free time! So much, so much, so much time, all the time. None of this bloody orchestra stuff, none of this responsibility, this duty. School was school and home was home, friends were friends and time was mine to spend, all the time in the world. I mean it's not like I was ever one for homework. Homework? Home? Yeah right. And just imagine; if I didn't have all this orchestra, all these instruments, these obligations, I would be so free right now, you have no idea. All the time in the world! God knows what I would be doing then. But it's nice to think about, from time to time. Music is lovely, it's wonderful, but it ties you down - down and down and down. Even summers, even vacations, vacations v-a-c-a-tions, no break, none! You have to be practicing all the time, it's concertsrecitalscompetitionsauditionstriosquartetsorchestrasaccompaniment just a neverending stream, they just keep coming and coming until you say all right, that's enough, give me a break, and then they slow for a bit and you have just enough time to slow with them, start to relax, take a breather, and then it's off and it's off and it's off again and enough is never enough and.

Some days I miss those days before I got into music, y'know?

:O

Aug. 23rd, 2008 10:43 pm
chu_totoro: (Chobits - winz0rz)
school is starting in less than 36 hours!

...what a distasteful thought.

the past two days have been decently fun. had lunch with Frank and a couple other guys at J&J on Friday. very amused by Frank and his brother's racist jokes:

what's a group of white people running down a hill?

avalanche

what's a group of black people running down a hill?

mudslide

what's a group of Mexican people running down a hill?

JAILBREAAAAAAAK


ahahahhahahah. ran around campus laughing at link leaders for a little bit (honestly, do YOUR schools' link crews do anything? it's so pointless.) and went home.

CPYO reunion party was... moderately fun. it would have been much more fun if I joined the people in the water instead of the people on land, unfortunately I couldn't because I didn't want to, um, bleed into the water, and that's probably more information than y'all need to know so I'll move on now.

Grace Kim is killer competitive at Mario Party. it's hilarious. :3 She rolls around and pounds the floor and screeches at the top of her lungs and throws her hair around like a dust cloud.

mmm Saratoga informal retreat was all right, all the same games and nowhere near as amusing as freshman year but maybe that's just me, hopefully the freshmen had fun which was the point. Also I missed the first, wut, half of it, which may have contributed. & seeing people was nice. I don't recognize half the people though, coz I missed all the icebreakers. :( oh well.

iiiin other news, all my instrument teachers demand first priority and as a result, I have all of them first priority, which is the same as no priority at all but there is no other way to do it and it is a little -.- in that regard.

I still feel as though summer just started.

owww

Jan. 12th, 2008 11:01 pm
chu_totoro: (FMA-- I sleep now kthxbye)
owch. The pains. They accumulate.

So yesterday I sat through an hour-ish of sixth per. orchestra all right. Breeze. Chill. Keropi/Mel came along to visit, too, which was nice. :D

Then, ~half hr after that, sat through two more hours of West Side Story all right. Admittedly playing a bassoon part and not cello, but it amounts to the same when you play it on the cello. XP I'd really rather play the cello cello part though, I feel so alone when he picks on me. D:

Then an hour of piano! Piano 'sdifferent from cello. Doesn't count.

Ah, but CPYO sectionals? Then I started to feel it in the lower back. An hour and a half later I was dying for a break. Luckily then we had break! ...or NOT, because just as we were putting our cellos away, we were informed we had 10 more minutes to go. T__T WHY.

But we got extra break after the 10 minutes, which was good. Curling up in chairs in various very un-cello-playing-like positions relieved pains somewhat. They flared again during actual rehearsal, but at least half the time was spent on winds and brass during which we could lean back and relax, so that wasn't too bad.

Today! Felt good in the morning. Very sleepy and still a little tired, but completely pain-free!

Still pain-free throughout West Side Story rehearsals. Sleepy, so sightread pretty badly, but that's okay. Two hours of zombie-playing.

Whip off to cello class! Step into Mrs. Kim's house, and suddenly WIDE AWAKE. No one is asleep around the cello teacher. Ever. If you are, it is soon remedied.

Miraculously regained sightreading powers and made it through my two etudes. I'm so lucky they were both easy. This week I didn't even look at the music before the lesson (stupid West Side Story).

Right, an hour of ever-vigilant attention to the cello. I don't even know if I had pains or not. You forget about any pains (headaches, sickness, physical injury) under the scrutiny of Mrs. Kim. Seriously. I've had past experience walking into her house, having my cold magically vanish for an hour, then reappear as soon as the lesson ends. But it's not anywhere near a good thing, because the only reason it vanishes is because you're focusing so hard on what she's telling you and trying so hard not to get yelled at that your concentration drives the cold out. ><

Anyway, I was all right when I left, so I'll classify that as no pains.

Then tonight! IT HITS. REALLY HARD. And no amount of shifting position/stretching out/moving around helps. At all.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH MY BACK. SOMEONE MAKE IT STOP. T______T
chu_totoro: (xxxholic-- sweatdrop)
Damn. Finally got chamber music assignment, after all that panicking and phone calls and last minute stuff...

Mozart Piano Quartet No.1 (g)

Three sections. ~20 mins total. 21 pages of piano music, 55 pages of the full score. Have to know and lick it all up to shape in this week and the week I get back from SJYS Europe. AND, since I'm going both as a pianist and a cellist, I'm in the orchestra as well, and I also might still get a cello chamber music assignment.

so screwed ahahahahahahaha~

Going to instrument my life away for the next couple of days. Byebye internet.
chu_totoro: (TRC-- I can see the rainbow)
w00t. make that three times in so many days. cello lesson utterly shattered me, just as piano did yesterday, aaaaaand, I fell apart! for the second time in a row. In a less-than-24-hour-span-of-time. .___.

but that seems pretty long ago (the lesson was earlyyy in the morning).

for the moment, life seems to be back to being somewhat good and mostly in control again, so forget that.

Incidentally, if you're really in desperate need of looking perfectly normal after an extended period of... disconsolate weeping, emoness, tantrums, whatever, something that makes your eyes all red and swollen, a wet towel brings you back to normal in about 5-10 minutes. highly useful information.

My mom actually suggested I cut cucumber slices! and uh. Use them. On my eye. As in, cover my eyes with two cucumber pieces so I look like a green, giant-round-eyed weirdo. buuuuuut I told her I'd rather not. >> I'm sure it's effective, the idea just doesn't... appeal to me.

mmmm so we'll see what happens @ piano lesson tmr and negotiate about the recital. I'm hoping she'll let me drop this one and perform Rachmaninoff instead at Holland, which will give me a couple of more weeks on that and also relieve my time up to study for finals, because I mean spending all of Sunday practicing and then being @ recital till late night and then either not studying and going to bed or studying and going to bed really really late = failed final on Monday. =/ Either that, or don't practice and study which = failed recital and disappointed teacher.

And I mean, after the Japanese final I don't really have anything left. Except the Calc test, which is a joke (finances?), and history. But those aren't till Wednesday. Until then, I have finals respectively for orchestra, poetry, and English. none of which have real finals! ha.

So, a day and a half to go.


In other news, I somehow very very stupidly infected my computer with a bunch of spyware, and something called Torpig. A pig named Tor! not.

Wasted ~hour fixing that. -____- IDIOCY GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Adam'll be back by tomorrow. With Katie. They'll have driven all the way back. by tomorrow. o____o damn they're fast.
chu_totoro: (Loveless-- please shoot me now)
Aiya.

I sometimes wonder why I take three instruments.

So tomorrow, I get to lug the cello to school again for the adv audition, lug it home after school, zoom straight off to piano, come home, zoom off again to San Francisco to watch Amy (I might or might not go, really ><).

And the next morning, I have to wake up EARLY wtf and go to a morning cello lesson, and before morning's even out I have to go to the cello COMPETITION. >>;; Eek.

And the next day, whee bright and early morning again! Off to piano recital, back, off to dance, then straight off to guzheng where we are to film Battle with the Typhoon (and we have to FINISH taping at least that one) because my teacher's taking the tapes and stuff over to China over the summer for this test that's in essence equivalent to the piano CM.

Sigh-h-h-h-h-h...

and guess what! If I get through the competition, and I will, I get to join their benefit orchestra for the benefit concert which means-- you guessed it, benefit orchestra rehearsals! Wonderful.

Finals next week. History project, English portfolio, English tests (we are now simultaneously finishing up two outside reading books and the grammar book), Japanese project thankfully over, reviews in math. Not too bad. Esp looking at Rachael and the poets. XD;;

I should actually study for Precalc, though. And not BS the history project because my grade is skewered right now.

Hum. I've got Sat afternoon, I suppose.
chu_totoro: (Default)
Wow. Haven't been home this early in ages. oO;; Cut Track today. Still sore from skateboard hill, hungry, menstrual cramps, + anyways we searched around everywhere and could not, NOT find the other long distance people, Mr. Jordan or even Eddie/Daniel.

Fwee hw time yes~

Brigadoon people were all dressed up walking around campus today. Chris Chin wore PINK and black. and a skirt. oO;; Jeff wore a skirt too. but it was like. village clothing. so it didn't look too bad. Austin had a giant feather in his hat, reminiscent of the antennae things in Chinese opera, y'know, those big long things the generals always wear that jiggle around when they move their head?

That being said, work now. Piano's been srsly suffering in the wake of cello... and ugh I have a "Incident Chart" to make for English...

fwomp

Feb. 7th, 2006 06:06 pm
chu_totoro: (Default)
hill... repeats... *ded* but I'm getting fast enough to race Eddie/Daniel now...

I wish I didn't have cello... I wouldn't mind it so much if I only had the Chinese hmwk and essay, Eng work, piano, and board meeting... oh right, and FMA x__X and History project... but like, it seems like I can get all of it done in a decent amt of time... even WITH the board meeting eating my time t'night... and maybe sleep at a relatively reasonable time like before 12... but just, when I think of another hour or so of cello on top of that, and more, and more relentless celloing and rehearsing and crap for the rest of the week... it just feels like... UGHdeadtiredexhaustion just want to dieee and forget about all of this....

I can't even go see Brigadoon because of it. :( And I want to.

oO;;

Jan. 28th, 2006 02:20 pm
chu_totoro: (Default)
... hey guys! Isn't this wonderful? I'm not going to have a life next week. at ALL.

Firstly, Track every day... it shall eat my time. but I shall get faster NYAHAHAHAHA today I ate with my cousins and they were like oO;; why are you walking weird? and I told them and they went OMFG BADMINTON STARTED TOO blahblahblahblah... XD

And then. Aftschool my schedule goes thus:

Monday: Track, Cello class
Tuesday: Track, Orchestra rehearsal
Wednesday: Track, Chinese class, Concert rehearsal
Thursday: Track, Concert rehearsal
Friday: Track, Piano class, Winter formal
Saturday: Cello class, concert rehearsal
Sunday: Dance class, koto class, concert rehearsal

Yeh, Mrs. Kim finally got the student concert music. Concert rehearsals start Wednesday, either 2-3 hrs long, ending at 9:30. >< And I'm placed in with the higher level people because of my age because it would suck if I were stuck with a bunch of little kids (nnh, I might be better than some people in school orchestra, but with the rest of the Kim students I'm waaaaaay down there) so this means I get the higher advanced music too! Which is. HELLA HARD.

Or, it isn't actually as hard as some of our school orchestra music. But I have to actually play it well, not give them the superficial crap (well I practiced some and it's somewhat better now but still. if Kim heard me she would DIEEE) that I feed Dr. Francisco.

It's not that bad, really.

Except that we have two weeks before the performance.

So for someone like me, it's literally PRACTICE MY HEAD OFF OR ELSE. Kim was like: "... you can do it! You'll just have to practice your butt off; drop all my other hw and just practice this several hrs every day, you'll be fine." =.=;;

Whee so I get to practice cello like crazy. And then! My piano lesson wasn't too good because I was really tired this week and didn't practice much so I need to get it back up to standard and past standard really 'coz I have to finish memorizing my last two CM songs because wow. It's the end of January. CM is in a MONTH. o__O;;

Extra hw this sem. too~ I traded in Health and PE, the two no-hw classes, for some of the most hw-full classes TrigPreCalcH and Wld Geog!! Ahahaha hw should be okay. I'll try to finish all my hw while at school. Like in Geometry! At home just English hw usually. Sutton gives too much work to be finished in school.

I also think I'm starting to get sick a bit. There's another cold sweeping the school and I think it reached me. Which also makes me wonder if I'm getting my period, because I tend never to get sick until I get my period. But I could be wrong. Nyah~

Er, koto? ha. ha. ha. screw koto. >>;; I don't have enough of a life left for koto.

^ has been getting by by sight-reading during class, and thus greatly improved jian pu (chinese style sheet music with all the numbers) reading skills

Lalalaah doesn't next week sound fun? Go me! I shall attempt to abstain from overmuch internet usage and procrastination.

In other news, today is Chinese New Years Eve! Like I said, I had lunch w/my cousins and thus aunt/uncle too and I got the first red envelope today. So now I have $60. I am no longer broke! Woooooo~

On Sunday my grandma's holding a pot luck with the entire extended family. You guys wait. By Monday I shall be a RICH LADY MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA~

Edit: Now that I think about it, I have that exact same schedule next next week too. Aside from the Paly winter formal. oO;; And it's worse, because next next Sunday's when we perform so we have longer dress rehearsals. They better not make me skip dance or koto. I've skipped far too often the past two months. ><

Edit: AAAAAAAH the ending of Of Mice and Men is so sad wah I want to cry now. T.T

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